hello
i have never felt this much stress in my entire life. i feel as if all the life is being sucked out of me and i hate college with a passion and i hate being an "adult" even more and i hate having to make life decisions and i hate money and...
ok so here's the lowdown. i have zero time to myself anymore because i'm either A: at work, B: at school, C: with Matt, D: with Dani or Lauren, E: sleeping, F: doing homework. do you see anything about my family or myself in there? nope. i don't have enough hours in the day for that anymore. and its my own fault, if i managed my time better i could do this but its just such a pain in the butt. matt has suddenly become like superglue and while i usually don't mind there are times where i just want a few minutes to myself, without him. that's not bad and it doesn't mean that i love him any less as he seems to believe. i can tell you right now that that is the main reason i have such a big crush on chris at the moment...with him its just harmless flirting, we're having a good time and he's fun to be around. with matt everything is a damn crisis situation. argh. boys.
then there is school. being there makes me sick. i'm failing college algebra, i gonna fail CED111 if these stupid schools don't call me about fieldwork...i don't even know if i want to be a teacher anymore but i can't change now because what else am i going to do with the rest of my life? as we speak i have math homework to do and an essay to write for my education class but unfortunately i have to work in less than an hour so we will see what all actually gets done.
i just went to open a savings account with wells fargo and in order to do that i had to open a new kind of checking account and get direct deposit so i don't have to keep a $300 minimum balance in my savings account and a $5000 min in my checking account! very confusing but the way he explained it to me i should be ok and if any fees happen to go through he's going to waive them for me. *incoherent screams*
i really should at least start this paper. i can finish it when i get home...have you ever felt like giving up? just letting it all go...it would be so much easier in the short term to screw college and get a management job somewhere or something. but i don't really want that...i just don't feel like i can handle all this STUFF. blah. i'm SO going to Disneyland in January.
ok so here's the lowdown. i have zero time to myself anymore because i'm either A: at work, B: at school, C: with Matt, D: with Dani or Lauren, E: sleeping, F: doing homework. do you see anything about my family or myself in there? nope. i don't have enough hours in the day for that anymore. and its my own fault, if i managed my time better i could do this but its just such a pain in the butt. matt has suddenly become like superglue and while i usually don't mind there are times where i just want a few minutes to myself, without him. that's not bad and it doesn't mean that i love him any less as he seems to believe. i can tell you right now that that is the main reason i have such a big crush on chris at the moment...with him its just harmless flirting, we're having a good time and he's fun to be around. with matt everything is a damn crisis situation. argh. boys.
then there is school. being there makes me sick. i'm failing college algebra, i gonna fail CED111 if these stupid schools don't call me about fieldwork...i don't even know if i want to be a teacher anymore but i can't change now because what else am i going to do with the rest of my life? as we speak i have math homework to do and an essay to write for my education class but unfortunately i have to work in less than an hour so we will see what all actually gets done.
i just went to open a savings account with wells fargo and in order to do that i had to open a new kind of checking account and get direct deposit so i don't have to keep a $300 minimum balance in my savings account and a $5000 min in my checking account! very confusing but the way he explained it to me i should be ok and if any fees happen to go through he's going to waive them for me. *incoherent screams*
i really should at least start this paper. i can finish it when i get home...have you ever felt like giving up? just letting it all go...it would be so much easier in the short term to screw college and get a management job somewhere or something. but i don't really want that...i just don't feel like i can handle all this STUFF. blah. i'm SO going to Disneyland in January.