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um lets see havnt herd from some of the major ppl in my life in couple dayz im tired as fuk i feel asleep at work for an hr good thing it was quiet today um yeas iv been readin the 4th harry potter book yeas im behind but almost don its gona be don tonight or tomorrw then im gona go straight in to the 5th i have it in my car waitin for me to
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all the way up there in the middle of nowhere
heres whats up with me
my familyt officialy accused me of being a pot head and ruining all the major drug addicts in my family, because they claim i got 27 yr old ppl addicted to cocain...etc.....o the lies make me look o so much more daring then i really am.
im not going home early, i desided why bother? just so then i can think about how im not going to see the one person i so desperately want to lay my eyes upon?- i went clothing shopping instead with all that money...
im the lead singer + giitarist in a band. Yes me...remember yrs ago phil said to us.." maia one day your going to be a singer in a punk rock band..." well that day has come babe...
my grandmother has turned against me, she pointed at me, spit at me...called me all kinds of names, told me ima lier, im sick in the head, that i beat up my mom all the time...im abusive...im good for nothing...and i;ll always be alone in my life and that is why gar left me. so my ego is all nic eand big right now *o the sarcasm*.
but i still got hope, because once hope is lost all is lost. i realized that the internal monologue in my head that forces me to day dream of gar coming back and telling me he misses his "soul mate" and the "sid" part of him needs the "nancy" part of me...is realy hope talking. that auto pilot that turns on when everything seems to be fucked up and u wanna shrivle up and die.
but lets not get depressed now shall we
i love ya dan- not like that,
always here when ever ya need me
maia
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