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[sjs06]

All of a sudden its really hitting me. i can't believe that in another 4 days i'll be leaving for school. it feels like this summer has gone by soo fast. this has been one of the hardest summers i've had. so much has gone on and now its all coming to an end. im not ready to go to school..im not ready to leave everyone and move on. waterford is my comfort zone and im afraid that everything and everyone will change. i wanna be able to come back on a break and know that i still have all of my old friends here who have been there for me for the past 4 years of my life. like i know i'll meet new people who will become my friends but i also don't wanna loose the old. there are ppl here that i have known for 13 years and i don't wanna EVER loose them. i've had a rough month and it doesn't seem to be getting any better. im afraid that the few certain ppl that i wanna say goodbye to won't wanna say anything back. it makes me sad to think that i've drifted from a lot of ppl but there's nothing i can do about it. im scared cuz the one person that i want to say goodbye to is the one person who doesn't even care that i exist. i just wanna put all of this shit behind us and move on as friends. its hard to do that though when i still really care. i know that things are said behind my back but w/e thats all of ur choices. im just scared cuz you mean so much to me and i now know that you never truly cared. o well =(

well thats enough of me rambling on. im looking forward to my new journey ahead of me but am also a bit nervous. i love you all and i will miss you all tons. make sure everyone keeps in touch!!