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[sjs06]

i don't like this at all. its my fault why were the way we are. we never talk anymore and i hate it but i truly am busy right now =( im also very depressed. what i hate the most is you are the only one that knows every single detail about me. you know everything there is to know about my past. your the only one that has been there for me through the good and the bad. even if were fighting you still seem to care. i have some of the best memories with you and i'll never forget those memories. you mean to world to me as a friend. my one fear i have right now is loosing you as a friend. i've already lost enough people this year. i don't wanna loose one more. i just wanna tell you how much you mean to me but im afraid of getting pushed away. idk everything seems so messed up in my life and i have no one to share it with cuz i don't even see you anymore. i sit here and think about every memory from our childhood and i love it. it makes me happy to know all we've been through. you've always been like a sister to me and i feel like that bond isn't there anymore. i wanna change it if you'll give me a chance too.

all i can say to you is im sorry =/