I suck

[sjp_sin]

I lost patience with Saul today. He was whining about not having a girlfriend. Again. As usual. Its always about a girl who got away, a girl who denied him, a self pity fest of not having a girlfriend. He says the chapter of his life of doing things alone is closed. He's wasted 10 years looking for a girlfriend. He even stalks girls online. I hate to use that term but he finds everything he can about them on the internet, their blogs, their past addresses, he even found one's medical background. If they dont want to have kids or if its risky he still pushes them to have kids and desire them. there was one girl who it would be dangerous for her to attempt to have a child and he still pushed her. Which pushed her away. For the last 2 years thats ALL he's talked about. These girls and how its a personal offense to him for them not dating him or for them not wanting kids or for them to not wanting to get rid of their cats because he's allergic. He's never even thought about voluneterring at a shelter or helping at a church function or anything! And he says he cant do wonderful things unless he has a girlfriend. So he wont do them. Anyway I was sick of it. The final straw was when he said I didnt have room to talk because I have Mike in tow and that if I had dumped him for Saul I would have accomplished more then what I have now. I flipped out. How DARE he bring up Mike and me. Yeah Mike and I have problems. We've worked through them. And I'm sure we will have many more that we will have to work through. Mike and I are two very diffirent people. Insanely so. And when we work together there are amazing results. On top of that we are completely in love (we'd have to be to put up with this much shit from each out).
Anyway I wish I could say I feel bad for laying into Saul but I dont. Not right now anyway. I'm pretty cruel. I just didnt know what to do. I've been trying to get Saul to stop this insanity and to relax for 2 years.