Babbling and musings on home and the city
So anyway, I've had this account for like a couple of weeks now and not bothered to write anything yet, and as I've been mucking about on the computer doing other things for a while now I figure I may as well do this too.
By and large, the reason I've not posted so far is because I am at home. That's, home. Not in Sydney at uni, but home, on the farm. It is lovely. I'm really not cut out for the city or for any sort of work that involves essays or concentration. I'm far too laid back for that crap and it makes me all frazzled.
But I love home - open spaces, smells, the pets, and my family, which surprised me - I miss them all when I'm away. Last semester - my first at Sydney Uni - the tinyness of my room and the pressure of work and the strangeness of Sydney made me crazy. Not in a yelling thrashing kind of a way, but like all of the stuff in my head had to try to occupy a space as small as my body did, whereas usually, there is plenty of room for thought to spread out. I need to be completely calm, or else I just can't handle anything.
And the city just feels wrong somehow. I mean, there are parts of it that I like, yeah, but really, why on earth would anyone want to live somewhere like that for any significant length of time? Where it is impossible to know all the streets and there are buildings shutting off the sky and millions of people who you don't and will never know or understand. I suppose I am just used to where I live. There are bad things about the country too, of course. But then, it's not 'the country' that I really consider home, it's my farm. There is nowhere in the world that makes more sense to me. "You can take the girl out of the country" and all that. I'm not meaning to be sappy, I don't do sap. I just had a lot of time to think about it while I was suffering the cabin fever.
My cat seems to have seen something interesting on the ceiling... And now he's meowing at me. Oh, I see, some clever ploy to get me to notice him and let him out. Fine!
Bossy little git. Darn him and his cuteness.
So, there's my first entry then. That's what I figured Lj would be for. Being able to enjoy my fandoms more, have an extra something to do when I'm back in Sydney (don't need or like to be on the computer much when I'm home. Although, I may jump on tomorrow or some time to write a little something about the concert Mum & I went to the other day - for prosperity's sake. Because man that was awesome!) and give myself a place to vent if the need arises and it's not too personal. Still haven't joined any communities yet or anything, but whatever, I'll get to it.
And now, it's tea time! Yay for food!!! Everybody Mambo!!!