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this entry is entirely about my sadness, so if u cant deal with that, dont read on...
it's been 2 months since we officially broke up. every day goes by and he's still on my mind. no matter how hard i try not to think about him, he's always there. theres hardly anything left of him in my room yet that still doesnt work. i miss so much. i miss being in his arms, knowing how much stronger he is than me. i miss him making me laugh with all his quotes and stupid jokes. i miss the sleepovers and the long talks. i miss hearing I love you every day. i miss seeing his messages to me in away messages. i even miss him making fun of me and calling me a wuss when i got too cold. i miss doing nothing with him at our houses, just watching tv. i miss playing wiffleball or playing catch. i miss having him there when i was sad, or sick. i miss having someone to talk to about the red sox, 24, or family guy. i miss hugging him and kissing him and just being around him. i miss having the one person i would run to for anything. it's been a while since we went apart, but it feels the same every day. i havent seen him in a month, and it's strange to me. going from seeing someone every day to never seeing them is just weird. it's very hard to get used to this new part of my life. i hate love songs, esp. from the CDs he made me, and PDA and im jealous, so very jealous of my friends in relationships. i never knew i could miss someone so much. its very true what they say, you never know how good you truly had it, until it's gone. and i wish with all my heart it wasnt.
I miss you Matt
it's been 2 months since we officially broke up. every day goes by and he's still on my mind. no matter how hard i try not to think about him, he's always there. theres hardly anything left of him in my room yet that still doesnt work. i miss so much. i miss being in his arms, knowing how much stronger he is than me. i miss him making me laugh with all his quotes and stupid jokes. i miss the sleepovers and the long talks. i miss hearing I love you every day. i miss seeing his messages to me in away messages. i even miss him making fun of me and calling me a wuss when i got too cold. i miss doing nothing with him at our houses, just watching tv. i miss playing wiffleball or playing catch. i miss having him there when i was sad, or sick. i miss having someone to talk to about the red sox, 24, or family guy. i miss hugging him and kissing him and just being around him. i miss having the one person i would run to for anything. it's been a while since we went apart, but it feels the same every day. i havent seen him in a month, and it's strange to me. going from seeing someone every day to never seeing them is just weird. it's very hard to get used to this new part of my life. i hate love songs, esp. from the CDs he made me, and PDA and im jealous, so very jealous of my friends in relationships. i never knew i could miss someone so much. its very true what they say, you never know how good you truly had it, until it's gone. and i wish with all my heart it wasnt.
I miss you Matt