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I turn 25 in a month. Panic?
I was having a major quarter life crisis some time ago, especially with the struggle of job hunting and constantly questioning if I'm looking for the right thing, in the right places. Now that I've found something I actually find myself enjoying, I feel like the wait was meant to be, and I've been thanking my lucky stars everyday since.
At this point, I have more hopes and aspirations than I've had in the past 25 years. I've never felt like this, genuinely wanting to take on more professional responsibilities and slowly grasping everything that comes my way. I guess I've just never found and pursued anything that match my interests and personality enough, and this one works so well for me. Maybe its just the novelty of something new? But I'm embracing this feeling right now.
Importantly too, I feel a sense of independence- in the sense that I have my own prospects, and also do not need to rely on anyone to add any meaning in my life. My emotional needs are not even a priority at this point. Yet I'm also finding myself with options, of which no one is any better than the other, and what that does is make me question if what I found special was even special at all. Options make you so much stronger. U just don't have as much fears of losing the one or two things that u thought were the only ones that mattered.
I'm ready for 25.
I was having a major quarter life crisis some time ago, especially with the struggle of job hunting and constantly questioning if I'm looking for the right thing, in the right places. Now that I've found something I actually find myself enjoying, I feel like the wait was meant to be, and I've been thanking my lucky stars everyday since.
At this point, I have more hopes and aspirations than I've had in the past 25 years. I've never felt like this, genuinely wanting to take on more professional responsibilities and slowly grasping everything that comes my way. I guess I've just never found and pursued anything that match my interests and personality enough, and this one works so well for me. Maybe its just the novelty of something new? But I'm embracing this feeling right now.
Importantly too, I feel a sense of independence- in the sense that I have my own prospects, and also do not need to rely on anyone to add any meaning in my life. My emotional needs are not even a priority at this point. Yet I'm also finding myself with options, of which no one is any better than the other, and what that does is make me question if what I found special was even special at all. Options make you so much stronger. U just don't have as much fears of losing the one or two things that u thought were the only ones that mattered.
I'm ready for 25.