Ok then...Emily..
I'd like to be...good at what I do...why did they pick me for an internship...everyone else there is an English lit graduate..with masters and masters masters and PHDs in THINKING. And here's me just so very 'exited' to be involved..Maybe I should just get high and talk philosophy..I'm good at Philosophy when I'm high, I'm good at Philosophy generally..if only that affected ANYTHING ELSE I might be regarded as a useful member of society. I wanted to be able to write music for a long time, because I know I can I just have this mental block...I want to express myself freely and look at something I've done and think...yeah, I'm good at something. But instead I am mediocre at everything, boring, overly cocky to hide my lack of confidence. I'm good at organizing things...perhaps I could go into events management and earn a lot of money and end up feeling fulfilled like that girl in the hills because I have my own office. I'd like to be a magazine editor, I'd like to write....I'd like people to look at something I wrote and think...wow how informed, and worldly and 'QUIRKY'...but (for instance) I'm too scared to go to bluddy Thailand because there are green spiders the size of your hand, at least one a day according to Shannon....how can I write things that are important and meaningful about the world if I'm scared of it?..The only other thing I've ever been any good at is performing..and that's a dark pursuit my friends......it's like pushing a snowball up a hill where every day the journey to the top get a little harder, the load a little heavier.. and giving up and going home to your nice family complete with picket fence, 2.4 adopted children from overseas and country retreat that you bought with your real-life-sallary from your swanky events management job with an office overlooking the Thames.
Oh Christ. I'm going to end up as someones PA..
Point being, and this entry was in pursuit of communicating this point only, I ask you..YEAH YOU...Why don't you have 'tit tape and tailor made fags and overpriced mixers' etc?....because your better than that.
Oh Christ. I'm going to end up as someones PA..
Point being, and this entry was in pursuit of communicating this point only, I ask you..YEAH YOU...Why don't you have 'tit tape and tailor made fags and overpriced mixers' etc?....because your better than that.