oh no, not again.
i'm in love. he's beautiful. he's tall, tattooed, a badass, blonde, bluest eyes i've ever seen. 2 stab wound scars that he showed me, and i almost passed out from the hotness. he's the male equivalent of me. hot. all i think about. we hit it off from day one, we have so much fun together, he's just the shit. and he digs me too, either that or he just talks shit about everyone but me and blatently flirts, leaving me speachless. example: "i just never eat anymore." "girl, you gotta eat something!" "well, i eat, just it's water or a quesadilla or one of these protein shakes" "you know, i could just cum into a cup and you could swallow that, then you'd get some quality protein." WTF! i should have said, "who needs a cup? fuck my mouth, you tease." oh well, i'll do better next time. i just obsess. i want him soooo bad.
i have some issues with this.
1. we work together, he was on a different schedule and i got admin to switch him to mine so i could work with him every day. the issue? he makes as much as i do. ass pennies.
2. he's an addict just like me. tweaker, stoner, drunk, slut, overeater. we could destroy eachother. it's happened to me before. fun for a while, then the little moments of clarity happen and the neglect of important things due to poor prioritizing. "i don't wanna work, i wanna get high and fuck you all day!!"
3. he's got sole custody of his 2 kids. not a big deal really. if a relationship did ensue, i'd be off the hook for popping any out. but kids. eek.
4. he's lives with his girlfriend. he says he's sick of her, she stalks him, she's got 3 shithead kids (5 kids in the house, what a nightmare!) he also says, and i quote, "but i get mine, ya know?" yes you sexy fucker, i know. thanks for the hint. by the way, i wouldn't mind just fucking him on the side, i'd keep that shit so quiet my best friends wouldn't have a clue. that would be our own personal pleasure.
5. ever since i broke up with my husband i've been extremely flighty. some people call it being a player. i fuck around, "forget" to call, "lose" his number, cut all ties. i've had 2 relationships since him and when things got bad, i disappeared. i never spoke to, saw, or had an urge to call (even when i'm super drunk!) these guys after i dumped their asses. hit it and quit it. what's the point of getting attached? they'll only make you cry, right?
so what the fuck? i just want to taste him. just once, lick the sweat off him and get my fix. only this time, i fear i might actually want him for more than that. he's got bestest friend potential. next ex husband material.
i have some issues with this.
1. we work together, he was on a different schedule and i got admin to switch him to mine so i could work with him every day. the issue? he makes as much as i do. ass pennies.
2. he's an addict just like me. tweaker, stoner, drunk, slut, overeater. we could destroy eachother. it's happened to me before. fun for a while, then the little moments of clarity happen and the neglect of important things due to poor prioritizing. "i don't wanna work, i wanna get high and fuck you all day!!"
3. he's got sole custody of his 2 kids. not a big deal really. if a relationship did ensue, i'd be off the hook for popping any out. but kids. eek.
4. he's lives with his girlfriend. he says he's sick of her, she stalks him, she's got 3 shithead kids (5 kids in the house, what a nightmare!) he also says, and i quote, "but i get mine, ya know?" yes you sexy fucker, i know. thanks for the hint. by the way, i wouldn't mind just fucking him on the side, i'd keep that shit so quiet my best friends wouldn't have a clue. that would be our own personal pleasure.
5. ever since i broke up with my husband i've been extremely flighty. some people call it being a player. i fuck around, "forget" to call, "lose" his number, cut all ties. i've had 2 relationships since him and when things got bad, i disappeared. i never spoke to, saw, or had an urge to call (even when i'm super drunk!) these guys after i dumped their asses. hit it and quit it. what's the point of getting attached? they'll only make you cry, right?
so what the fuck? i just want to taste him. just once, lick the sweat off him and get my fix. only this time, i fear i might actually want him for more than that. he's got bestest friend potential. next ex husband material.