things that run through my head constantly..
i have been sitting here starring at the wall.
i decided to just idk
type the stuff that runs through my head constantly..
*how do i know that my relationship with justin is real?
*why do people drink? is being an alcoholic fun?
..no it's not you just make yourself look like an idiot
*why haven't i been eating lately?
*why am i always sick?
*why do i have emotional breakdowns?
*how do some people's parents just sit there and let their kid smoke pot?
..at least my parents are nice enough to care and don't want me to do it
..i do it anyways.
*why do people get cancer?
*why is smoking cigarrettes so addicting?
*how come i quit but my mom can't?
*why am i starting to get feelings for another guy?
*why do i hand out money like it's candy?
..i think i get used for my money
*why do i constantly say i'm fat? i'm not that bad.
*why am i like flunking out of school? i try to do good but, it doesn't work.
*why do guys have it so much easier then girls?
..all they have to worry about is getting a girl pregnant & their penis size & that doesn't even matter.
*how come whenever i meet a guy they mention something about my boobs?
..this is why i wear a sweatshirt all the time now.
*why are people fighting for peace?
..it's like fucking for virginity.
*is everything worth it in the end?
*how can i see my friends get hurt/arrested for something & i keep doing the things they did that got them hurt/arrested?
*is lying to my parents worth the high?
*how come people are so judgemental?
*how can people sit there and talk endless shit about their 'friends'?
*why do people lie about their virginity?
..when i was a virgin i was so proud of it
*why do people lie and say they smoke pot and hard drugs?
*is drinking worth not remembering it the next day?
*why do people rape others? can't they pay a whore?
*how come losing your virginity means so much more to girls then it does to guys?
*why did i lose my virginity the way i did?
*why is the guy i think i am getting feelings for is in my head constantly?
..i will NOT cheat on justin though
*why did i cheat on my ex-boyfriend?
*how could i have done that? that's the worst thing ever.
*have i ever been cheated on?
..probably
*why do i have a phobia of rats?
*why am i so fucking ticklish?
*why did i have to go and slit my wrists?
..scars aren't worth it
*how can people stand listening to the music on MTV?
*why do people care about what others think?
..i sure don't
*why am i addicted to caffine?
*if america is a free country why do we the most idiodic laws?
*would anyone cry if i died?
..or would they just gasp and cover their mouth and say oh my god!
*i honestly don't think i will live past 45.. if that
*and there's the guy [i'm getting feelings for] again. he's stuck in my fucking head.
omg i'm stopping.
i am typing too much.
i decided to just idk
type the stuff that runs through my head constantly..
*how do i know that my relationship with justin is real?
*why do people drink? is being an alcoholic fun?
..no it's not you just make yourself look like an idiot
*why haven't i been eating lately?
*why am i always sick?
*why do i have emotional breakdowns?
*how do some people's parents just sit there and let their kid smoke pot?
..at least my parents are nice enough to care and don't want me to do it
..i do it anyways.
*why do people get cancer?
*why is smoking cigarrettes so addicting?
*how come i quit but my mom can't?
*why am i starting to get feelings for another guy?
*why do i hand out money like it's candy?
..i think i get used for my money
*why do i constantly say i'm fat? i'm not that bad.
*why am i like flunking out of school? i try to do good but, it doesn't work.
*why do guys have it so much easier then girls?
..all they have to worry about is getting a girl pregnant & their penis size & that doesn't even matter.
*how come whenever i meet a guy they mention something about my boobs?
..this is why i wear a sweatshirt all the time now.
*why are people fighting for peace?
..it's like fucking for virginity.
*is everything worth it in the end?
*how can i see my friends get hurt/arrested for something & i keep doing the things they did that got them hurt/arrested?
*is lying to my parents worth the high?
*how come people are so judgemental?
*how can people sit there and talk endless shit about their 'friends'?
*why do people lie about their virginity?
..when i was a virgin i was so proud of it
*why do people lie and say they smoke pot and hard drugs?
*is drinking worth not remembering it the next day?
*why do people rape others? can't they pay a whore?
*how come losing your virginity means so much more to girls then it does to guys?
*why did i lose my virginity the way i did?
*why is the guy i think i am getting feelings for is in my head constantly?
..i will NOT cheat on justin though
*why did i cheat on my ex-boyfriend?
*how could i have done that? that's the worst thing ever.
*have i ever been cheated on?
..probably
*why do i have a phobia of rats?
*why am i so fucking ticklish?
*why did i have to go and slit my wrists?
..scars aren't worth it
*how can people stand listening to the music on MTV?
*why do people care about what others think?
..i sure don't
*why am i addicted to caffine?
*if america is a free country why do we the most idiodic laws?
*would anyone cry if i died?
..or would they just gasp and cover their mouth and say oh my god!
*i honestly don't think i will live past 45.. if that
*and there's the guy [i'm getting feelings for] again. he's stuck in my fucking head.
omg i'm stopping.
i am typing too much.