trick or treat till your heart don't beat
halloween is a monday how much does that suck!?
well i haven't been updating a lot and it's kind of refreshing but all in all i never anything good to say anyways.
anthony n' tom came over last night when i got home from working out (yes working out on a saturday night) we watched the whole ten yards. tom was annoying as usual and i always wonder why anth brings him along. he's prolly afraid to be alone with me. he doesn't wana make the wrong move for me to punch him. tonight is the first night i acknowledge him acting on his feelings. i let him touch my stomach without any smart comments about "us." there will be no us ever and i hate myself for maybe leading him on but he's okay because at college i know he is a PLAYER.
on the other hand lee called me when i was in south carolina and i almost died. he wanted to see what was up. amazing. that hasn't happened since the whole i can't have him but he continues to hold me from behind in public and pretend like he wants me. always asking what's up but always calling me tom boy which is the level point. he laughs when i get dressed up and i laugh that i kick his ass when we play one on one. (he's 10000 times better then me in hoops)
kendell is younger then he is. he doesn't understand the words...i want you. and ever since i said that he won't talk to me. this weekend though he kissed me and only me on the cheek. secret acts of affection in front of the whole group of pals. i can't take him seriously ever and i'm glad i told him i want him. he is insecure and crazy. he's not what i am looking for and i am not what he's looking for. i hope he didn't tell anyone i said that. humilating.
friday night-
team sleepover -- everything we aren't supposed to be doing because we are good catholic school girls. hah. i went over to this kid vance's house. he's a good guy i don't see why a lot of people don't like him. he's alright if you get to know him. i knew he was rich but i didn't know he was extremely rich. he lives next to atwan walker's mom. haha fucking crazy.
looks like i am going to college for free in south carolina but it could change anyday, anytime. why do my friends drive passed my crib blasting music 1000 times. i am fucking staying in. annoying.
life is okay. everything will be alright. high school is dumb.
well i haven't been updating a lot and it's kind of refreshing but all in all i never anything good to say anyways.
anthony n' tom came over last night when i got home from working out (yes working out on a saturday night) we watched the whole ten yards. tom was annoying as usual and i always wonder why anth brings him along. he's prolly afraid to be alone with me. he doesn't wana make the wrong move for me to punch him. tonight is the first night i acknowledge him acting on his feelings. i let him touch my stomach without any smart comments about "us." there will be no us ever and i hate myself for maybe leading him on but he's okay because at college i know he is a PLAYER.
on the other hand lee called me when i was in south carolina and i almost died. he wanted to see what was up. amazing. that hasn't happened since the whole i can't have him but he continues to hold me from behind in public and pretend like he wants me. always asking what's up but always calling me tom boy which is the level point. he laughs when i get dressed up and i laugh that i kick his ass when we play one on one. (he's 10000 times better then me in hoops)
kendell is younger then he is. he doesn't understand the words...i want you. and ever since i said that he won't talk to me. this weekend though he kissed me and only me on the cheek. secret acts of affection in front of the whole group of pals. i can't take him seriously ever and i'm glad i told him i want him. he is insecure and crazy. he's not what i am looking for and i am not what he's looking for. i hope he didn't tell anyone i said that. humilating.
friday night-
team sleepover -- everything we aren't supposed to be doing because we are good catholic school girls. hah. i went over to this kid vance's house. he's a good guy i don't see why a lot of people don't like him. he's alright if you get to know him. i knew he was rich but i didn't know he was extremely rich. he lives next to atwan walker's mom. haha fucking crazy.
looks like i am going to college for free in south carolina but it could change anyday, anytime. why do my friends drive passed my crib blasting music 1000 times. i am fucking staying in. annoying.
life is okay. everything will be alright. high school is dumb.