i'm back only to leave again

[sixteensongs]

just got back from vegas..boy i need to be of age to go there and i am never going with girls again. fucking retards. i'd go for like two nights - pull all nighters - then head off to cali and find some place to relax and sleep it off. you know what happens in vegas...stays in vegas! hah.

as of news with love and such garbage...

i am still crushing over a friend of mine who i hardly see or talk to for that matter. it's awful and i can't believe this is going on. when we see eachother it is so much different. next move he makes i am going for it. i wonder if he is playing me? whatever. i'll make sure he's not by being serious around him which is very rare. he'd be too shocked to not tell the truth. it's so hard though because his friend has told me that he is into me and i told him that i want his pal. his buddy knows i'm not feeling it with him but he really hasn't backed down yet. it's sad. i need to figured out all the mixed signals and put the puzzle together in my head. maybe i'll pull the flower petals and do the he loves me...he loves me not..and see which one 'fate' chooses for me. haha good ol' fate. i hate thinking everything is already planned out. *shivers*

well i leave for D.C. wednesday. much lovee if i don't talk to you.