Sep 29, 2004 21:36
he told me he loved me. he means this. i told him i simply can't say it until i back it completely. heart, mind and soul. i cried tonight in a van while he walked away to his house it's fine though. everything will be okay.
his friend is a jerk but is just like me in a lot of ways. he just needs to find someone to love him.
my brother or my mother walked in my room and read one of these letters i was going to send. it had this line. "i'm so glad i quit that shit" as in drugs. mother said he found it and read it. then he covered for me and was like mom doesn't know what she's talking about.
Well that's that. i cried at least twice tonight. i can't trust even my closest family members. my brother, man i thought we were cool. he coulda kept his mouth shut at least. my mother, fuck her.