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Given the recent series of events, I think I have a good reason to feel like everything around me has just screwed me over...but really I just need to regather my thoughts, realize I can't have everything that I want, and admit defeat. I am really sick of my attitude towards friends and whatnot, especially that one friend of mine. I can't help but feel that my douchieness is bringing them down too, although they seem rather cheerful.
Somebody needs to get me drunk, or get me a girlfriend, or something (but not at the same time, she'd probably be a gross skank). Anything to make me a bit happier would do, cause working ten hours a day, then coming home to no plans and drama that doesn't quit is getting somewhat stale. Normally in this situation I would have someone to talk to, but I'm sick of feeling like one of those breakup situations where all the guy does is pout and wallow in his own mistake and misfortune, so I think sparing everyone of my EMOtions would do them good.
I'm miles away from being over Laura, I wish that was a good thing. I think my feelings for her are getting in the way of our awesomeness, and the last thing I want out of this is to never speak to her again. Unfortunately, that fear is coming closer and closer cause I'm a little bitch around her and jay.
Last topic, I promise
Im scared of the future. With everything changing on a daily basis, and previous plans going awry by unexpected changes in heart, I feel kind of like that one spice in your spice cabinet that you never use, so it gets shoved to the back with all of the seasonings you haven't used in years. You know, that one spice... Right, anyway, these next two or three months could either be the happiest of my life, or the most painful I have ever lived. Im afraid, and extremely unprepared for what could happen. We'll see how I deal with it, and if I feel the same about her than I did three months ago.
Thanks for listening folks
Somebody needs to get me drunk, or get me a girlfriend, or something (but not at the same time, she'd probably be a gross skank). Anything to make me a bit happier would do, cause working ten hours a day, then coming home to no plans and drama that doesn't quit is getting somewhat stale. Normally in this situation I would have someone to talk to, but I'm sick of feeling like one of those breakup situations where all the guy does is pout and wallow in his own mistake and misfortune, so I think sparing everyone of my EMOtions would do them good.
I'm miles away from being over Laura, I wish that was a good thing. I think my feelings for her are getting in the way of our awesomeness, and the last thing I want out of this is to never speak to her again. Unfortunately, that fear is coming closer and closer cause I'm a little bitch around her and jay.
Last topic, I promise
Im scared of the future. With everything changing on a daily basis, and previous plans going awry by unexpected changes in heart, I feel kind of like that one spice in your spice cabinet that you never use, so it gets shoved to the back with all of the seasonings you haven't used in years. You know, that one spice... Right, anyway, these next two or three months could either be the happiest of my life, or the most painful I have ever lived. Im afraid, and extremely unprepared for what could happen. We'll see how I deal with it, and if I feel the same about her than I did three months ago.
Thanks for listening folks