Slap
Wow it's already nearly the end of September. What an exhausting month! It seems like everyday I have to push harder and longer just to make sure I keep up at least 2 days behind all my classes. Between coursework and research, I have to find time to keep myself alive. It could be a lot worse though. I could be dead or have a penis transplant cuz I lost mine in a freak accident. Anyone else see that article on CNN about that poor chinese guy? Damn, he got his from a brain dead 22 year old!!! I wouldn't want anyone to take my penis even if I WAS brain dead. At least let me keep my dignity.
Hmm...when I said I'd be an organ donor in case I died in a car accident or something, I wasn't thinking about THAT particular one.
Ah well...it'd definitely get more action from whoever else got it if it came to that.
You gotta really want it to have someone else's surgically grafted onto you.
Anyway, enough of musing about...uh...losing my penis. You can count on your fingers the number of people who are in this building at the very moment. I'm not the only crazy one still here trying to get something finished. The experiment I'm doing isn't even worth mentioning to anyone. It seems like all the experiments I do, there's something that gets left out that I did think about. When I realize what it is, it's already been several months and I end up having to do the whole thing all over again. The cycle just keeps going and going...I hate this aspect of research. Then again if it were as easy as everyone wanted, there'd be more people out there doing what I'm doing. When I read some of the stuff that people did or are doing right now in other areas, it just blows me away.
I just want to do something that's worth talking about. I want to do something important...something that will change the world in some way, shape, or form. I hate feeling like I've been working at something for a long time and still have nothing to show for it. That feeling just seems to stick to me right now. The more I write that paper, the more it seems like it's all just a bunch of crock because I made it all up on my own. Who cares how I came to these conclusions?? If I just cut out all the pages that I wrote about the process, it would be a very very short paper.
Maybe one or two pages after the table of contents...
Two more for references about other people's work that barely relates to mine because no one else has written about this stuff.
I guess that's good in a way.
So tired...
Hmm...when I said I'd be an organ donor in case I died in a car accident or something, I wasn't thinking about THAT particular one.
Ah well...it'd definitely get more action from whoever else got it if it came to that.
You gotta really want it to have someone else's surgically grafted onto you.
Anyway, enough of musing about...uh...losing my penis. You can count on your fingers the number of people who are in this building at the very moment. I'm not the only crazy one still here trying to get something finished. The experiment I'm doing isn't even worth mentioning to anyone. It seems like all the experiments I do, there's something that gets left out that I did think about. When I realize what it is, it's already been several months and I end up having to do the whole thing all over again. The cycle just keeps going and going...I hate this aspect of research. Then again if it were as easy as everyone wanted, there'd be more people out there doing what I'm doing. When I read some of the stuff that people did or are doing right now in other areas, it just blows me away.
I just want to do something that's worth talking about. I want to do something important...something that will change the world in some way, shape, or form. I hate feeling like I've been working at something for a long time and still have nothing to show for it. That feeling just seems to stick to me right now. The more I write that paper, the more it seems like it's all just a bunch of crock because I made it all up on my own. Who cares how I came to these conclusions?? If I just cut out all the pages that I wrote about the process, it would be a very very short paper.
Maybe one or two pages after the table of contents...
Two more for references about other people's work that barely relates to mine because no one else has written about this stuff.
I guess that's good in a way.
So tired...