Anxious
I work at Redwire: Broadband Solutions for Business. Until this morning Clint was able to say the same thing. I'm just a level 1 support tech. Clint was a junior assistant network admin. He got me my job. He had his own office. He was big in this company. For his birthday, redwire paid for a few-nights-stay at the MGM Grand in Las Vegas. If Clint didn't like a tech, he could speak to the higher ups, and chances are, Redwire would let them go...
So it was quite unexpected, Clint getting fired. It happened this morning. I heard about it via hushed whisper from a co-working of mine when I came in today. I feel my world is shifting around me. Im a stagnant stick in the mud, and the room is a phantasmagoric mush.
If you asked me last week what I thought about the company I would have said I loved it. Today... I'm not sure. Until recently its always felt like a group of friends got together to show the world what was what. It felt good...
When I first joined Redwire, someone was fired. Clint said I'm pretty safe because if anyone was getting pissed with me, he'd hear about it first. I forget how long I've been with Redwire. Last week the president of the company came storming into the NOC and blasted me for not being on instant messenger. "You've been warned enough about this," he scolded.
I tried to explain. He cut me off. I thought I was getting fired.
So if someone asks me if I like my job, I'd probably stare dazedly beyond them and ask back,"Who gets yelled at for not being on AIM?"
They wouldn't know the answer to my question, but thats ok, cause I no longer know the answer to theirs.
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I feel anxious... I dont like feeling fragile and despensible. I remember signing my contract with redwire. It was a By-Will contract. Which means I could quit anytime I want without a 2weeks notice because I'm working by will. But what it really means is that they could fire me the same way... just like Clint.
So it was quite unexpected, Clint getting fired. It happened this morning. I heard about it via hushed whisper from a co-working of mine when I came in today. I feel my world is shifting around me. Im a stagnant stick in the mud, and the room is a phantasmagoric mush.
If you asked me last week what I thought about the company I would have said I loved it. Today... I'm not sure. Until recently its always felt like a group of friends got together to show the world what was what. It felt good...
When I first joined Redwire, someone was fired. Clint said I'm pretty safe because if anyone was getting pissed with me, he'd hear about it first. I forget how long I've been with Redwire. Last week the president of the company came storming into the NOC and blasted me for not being on instant messenger. "You've been warned enough about this," he scolded.
I tried to explain. He cut me off. I thought I was getting fired.
So if someone asks me if I like my job, I'd probably stare dazedly beyond them and ask back,"Who gets yelled at for not being on AIM?"
They wouldn't know the answer to my question, but thats ok, cause I no longer know the answer to theirs.
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I feel anxious... I dont like feeling fragile and despensible. I remember signing my contract with redwire. It was a By-Will contract. Which means I could quit anytime I want without a 2weeks notice because I'm working by will. But what it really means is that they could fire me the same way... just like Clint.