Bleh...
Ok...I hate my new meds, because they make me sick, and they seem to make me emotional as fuck. I've been crying for 3 days. I'm so not amused. I'm so fucking emotional I'm messing up my Role Play characters lives. Rose seems to mirror my moods, so, her life is also going to Hell. Fun.
I got rehired and fired from Thompson's all in two days, then got asked to work tomorrow night. *sighs* Work at Key is pretty much done, so if they don't give me hours, I'm screwed. Yay.
I start treatment on Wednesday, 3 days a week for 6 weeks. Localized radiation. Yeehah.
I threw out the house guest. 8 months with no help, and it even got on my nerves. Her stuff is still here, some of it, but I changed the locks. I was done.
I had a friend pass away over a month ago, suicide. She was an on-line friend, I actually met her through AC. But she was someone I talked to a lot, and it really hurt me when I found out. Then, soon after that, I happen to randomly make another friend on-line. Someone whom I totally clicked with, totally get along with. Same quirky/sick sense of humor. I kinda always figured that I was gifted with a new one since I lost one. Makes sense, right? Then I found out tonight that this person has been lying to me right along. About, of all things, their gender. So, the question of the hour...ignore it? I mean, I'm not mad. Seriously. But, I was hurt. Mainly because I was lied too. And, even when I wondered...because I did, I have pretty good insticts. And asked..because I did, often, I was still told that this person was female. Hell, I even saw a 'picture'. I don't know, I mean *sighs* I totally still care about them as much as I did before. And, they are still the same person to me. And I totally don't want to lose their friendship. But, I trusted a lot of myself to them. You know, I just really hate being lied to. Ok...feels good to get that out. I'm done now.
I got rehired and fired from Thompson's all in two days, then got asked to work tomorrow night. *sighs* Work at Key is pretty much done, so if they don't give me hours, I'm screwed. Yay.
I start treatment on Wednesday, 3 days a week for 6 weeks. Localized radiation. Yeehah.
I threw out the house guest. 8 months with no help, and it even got on my nerves. Her stuff is still here, some of it, but I changed the locks. I was done.
I had a friend pass away over a month ago, suicide. She was an on-line friend, I actually met her through AC. But she was someone I talked to a lot, and it really hurt me when I found out. Then, soon after that, I happen to randomly make another friend on-line. Someone whom I totally clicked with, totally get along with. Same quirky/sick sense of humor. I kinda always figured that I was gifted with a new one since I lost one. Makes sense, right? Then I found out tonight that this person has been lying to me right along. About, of all things, their gender. So, the question of the hour...ignore it? I mean, I'm not mad. Seriously. But, I was hurt. Mainly because I was lied too. And, even when I wondered...because I did, I have pretty good insticts. And asked..because I did, often, I was still told that this person was female. Hell, I even saw a 'picture'. I don't know, I mean *sighs* I totally still care about them as much as I did before. And, they are still the same person to me. And I totally don't want to lose their friendship. But, I trusted a lot of myself to them. You know, I just really hate being lied to. Ok...feels good to get that out. I'm done now.