My Two Cents
It's 5:30 in the fucking morning and I have a headache. I should be in bed, but no, I'm here reading my friend's page since I was informed last night I was a spy. Which was news to me. If I'm spying for someone they'd better make themselves known and start paying me.
I really was going to keep my own counsel on this whole AC thing, and if you want to know what I think, you can ask me. Even then I'm too lazy to type so I usually just blow it off, and abbreviate or bitch, depending on my mood. Yes, a lot of good friends of mine are no longer playing at AC. But, I'm a big girl, I can email, IM or even get off my lazy ass and read and comment their journals, so it's not like I'm losing anyone forever. And yes, the tension at AC is ridiculous. But, as far as I'm concerned, at least OOC-wise, I'm not really involved. But, IC...fuck yeah I'm going to be a cunt. Why? BECAUSE THAT IS WHO MY MOTHERFUCKING CHARACTER IS FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!!!! I have spent 9 months shaping my character into a bitchy whore who will fight at the drop of a hat, and loves conflict. HELLO PEOPLE....that is IN CHARACTER. Why was a Rose a bitch in Tara's post? Because she can be. Was it motivated by OOC issues...yeah, maybe for a minute or two until I pulled my head out of my ass and got back to IC. But, the first comment was vintage Rose. Period. I have no issues with Mara. Or anyone else at the moment, that I know of. I mean, fuck people....it's a GAME!!!
I was saying to Lindsay the other day that I feel like this is a game of chess. Everyone studying each other's last move before making their's, everyone looking to say checkmate first. I'm not going to say I'm not among them, because I love games that make you think, make you work to get somewhere. But this isn't supposed to be a win/lose type game. This is supposed to be fun. I have fun being a bitchy character. It's one of the reasons that I choose her, and shaped her how I did. I love flame wars, I have fun baiting at parties, and I just adore scaring the newbies. It's Rose's favorite sport. And I'm not changing her.
I'm also not planning on leaving AC. At least, I don't want to. I like where I am in my story lines, I think that my girls both need to develop a lot more, and I think that, at the moment at least, they'll do that best at AC. Yes, I'm sick of the lines being blurred, but I'm at the point where I've begun to accept that it's just going to happen. We all put so much of our heart and souls into these characters and this game, that we're gonna take some things more personal then we should, we're going to get our feelings hurt sometimes. All I ask is that if you want to know my motivation behind something, IM me and fucking ask me.
Trust me, I'll tell you.
I really was going to keep my own counsel on this whole AC thing, and if you want to know what I think, you can ask me. Even then I'm too lazy to type so I usually just blow it off, and abbreviate or bitch, depending on my mood. Yes, a lot of good friends of mine are no longer playing at AC. But, I'm a big girl, I can email, IM or even get off my lazy ass and read and comment their journals, so it's not like I'm losing anyone forever. And yes, the tension at AC is ridiculous. But, as far as I'm concerned, at least OOC-wise, I'm not really involved. But, IC...fuck yeah I'm going to be a cunt. Why? BECAUSE THAT IS WHO MY MOTHERFUCKING CHARACTER IS FOR CHRIST'S SAKE!!!! I have spent 9 months shaping my character into a bitchy whore who will fight at the drop of a hat, and loves conflict. HELLO PEOPLE....that is IN CHARACTER. Why was a Rose a bitch in Tara's post? Because she can be. Was it motivated by OOC issues...yeah, maybe for a minute or two until I pulled my head out of my ass and got back to IC. But, the first comment was vintage Rose. Period. I have no issues with Mara. Or anyone else at the moment, that I know of. I mean, fuck people....it's a GAME!!!
I was saying to Lindsay the other day that I feel like this is a game of chess. Everyone studying each other's last move before making their's, everyone looking to say checkmate first. I'm not going to say I'm not among them, because I love games that make you think, make you work to get somewhere. But this isn't supposed to be a win/lose type game. This is supposed to be fun. I have fun being a bitchy character. It's one of the reasons that I choose her, and shaped her how I did. I love flame wars, I have fun baiting at parties, and I just adore scaring the newbies. It's Rose's favorite sport. And I'm not changing her.
I'm also not planning on leaving AC. At least, I don't want to. I like where I am in my story lines, I think that my girls both need to develop a lot more, and I think that, at the moment at least, they'll do that best at AC. Yes, I'm sick of the lines being blurred, but I'm at the point where I've begun to accept that it's just going to happen. We all put so much of our heart and souls into these characters and this game, that we're gonna take some things more personal then we should, we're going to get our feelings hurt sometimes. All I ask is that if you want to know my motivation behind something, IM me and fucking ask me.
Trust me, I'll tell you.