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I was just watching cheaper by the dozen, and i realized, i want a big family. not just a big one, i want like 8 or 9 kids. i want a family thats so big that no matter what theres always something going on, and no matter what, theres always going to be someone there for you. i want a huge family and i want it to be perfect. and when i picture this family, i see myself with 8 or 9 kids and the only other person i can even picture myself with is john. his family is the exact family i want. i want everything to be so perfect, theres nothing i would prefer.and the fact that john's the only person i can see it all happening with, makes me feel so good and so much like it will all work out because theres nothing better than having the perfect family with the one person you love. i mean, i know it sounds crazy, we've only been going out for almost 4 months. but these past 4 months have been so awesome. the best actually. i mean, im 17 and thinking about having nine kids, rofl. i can't help it though, i wish i had a family like that. i wish that i had so many brothers and sisters that i would never be bored. i mean, i love my sisters to death and we get along so well most of the time, and i would never give that up because they are fun and so spontaneous, i just wish there was more of them, that way while my mom is out, and my dad is never around, i would never think about it. my family is going to be so much better than the one i have now, im always going to be there for all nine of my kids, and im never going to put anything/anyone before because i can't stand that both my parents do that now. i don't know why i feel so strongly about this, but im glad that i do and im glad that the person i see myself having all these kids with is john because honestly, i wouldn't have it any other way. i mean, i can only see myself getting married and having so many kids with him. if i were to marry anyone else, im sure i wouldn't even consider having kids, just because i wouldn't know how long the marriage would last..but if i were to marry john, i know the marriage would last forever..i want the feeling that john has when he walks in his house. the feeling of not being able to be in one room without someone else there. the feeling you have so many people that are so nice and loving and caring. i can't wait until i grow up. haha, i just hope me and john will be together and have this family that i want so badly. i hope i don't scare him away with this...but its just how i feel. i feel so overwhelmed with like, happiness its weird and all because i watched a movie and imagined how it would be for me and john to have a family like that? its kind of ironic too because i was telling john how awesome his family is. he's so lucky.
well, im out of here. haha, everyone that read this is probly thinking i have soemthing wrong with me...i don't care though...its a journal, its what you feel...and this is how i feel right at this moment. whoever reads this will probly think im acting like a little girl or immature, but i don't care, if thats what you think, keep it to yourself.
<3JOHN
-Ange
I was just watching cheaper by the dozen, and i realized, i want a big family. not just a big one, i want like 8 or 9 kids. i want a family thats so big that no matter what theres always something going on, and no matter what, theres always going to be someone there for you. i want a huge family and i want it to be perfect. and when i picture this family, i see myself with 8 or 9 kids and the only other person i can even picture myself with is john. his family is the exact family i want. i want everything to be so perfect, theres nothing i would prefer.and the fact that john's the only person i can see it all happening with, makes me feel so good and so much like it will all work out because theres nothing better than having the perfect family with the one person you love. i mean, i know it sounds crazy, we've only been going out for almost 4 months. but these past 4 months have been so awesome. the best actually. i mean, im 17 and thinking about having nine kids, rofl. i can't help it though, i wish i had a family like that. i wish that i had so many brothers and sisters that i would never be bored. i mean, i love my sisters to death and we get along so well most of the time, and i would never give that up because they are fun and so spontaneous, i just wish there was more of them, that way while my mom is out, and my dad is never around, i would never think about it. my family is going to be so much better than the one i have now, im always going to be there for all nine of my kids, and im never going to put anything/anyone before because i can't stand that both my parents do that now. i don't know why i feel so strongly about this, but im glad that i do and im glad that the person i see myself having all these kids with is john because honestly, i wouldn't have it any other way. i mean, i can only see myself getting married and having so many kids with him. if i were to marry anyone else, im sure i wouldn't even consider having kids, just because i wouldn't know how long the marriage would last..but if i were to marry john, i know the marriage would last forever..i want the feeling that john has when he walks in his house. the feeling of not being able to be in one room without someone else there. the feeling you have so many people that are so nice and loving and caring. i can't wait until i grow up. haha, i just hope me and john will be together and have this family that i want so badly. i hope i don't scare him away with this...but its just how i feel. i feel so overwhelmed with like, happiness its weird and all because i watched a movie and imagined how it would be for me and john to have a family like that? its kind of ironic too because i was telling john how awesome his family is. he's so lucky.
well, im out of here. haha, everyone that read this is probly thinking i have soemthing wrong with me...i don't care though...its a journal, its what you feel...and this is how i feel right at this moment. whoever reads this will probly think im acting like a little girl or immature, but i don't care, if thats what you think, keep it to yourself.
<3JOHN
-Ange