the choice was mine i didn't think enough...

[six_15_bassist]

Today was a good day, everything was going great. I hungout with John, had fun, then after we ate diner, we hungout with Matt and Pat. We just chilled for a while at west hudson park, I went to sleep in Matt's car, I was DED!12 Times dead! lmao..yeah, anywho..everything was all good, until I was stupid and fucked up everything! I'm so stupid and I hate how I act like a kid sometimes..I don't like looking back at something I did and feeling stupid about doing it. I'm noticing lately that I'm always picking out the negatives in me, and its making me really sad that I have so many. I don't know why I do it though. Maybe its because I don't think I'm good enough for John, or maybe its because I just don't think I'm good enough to begin with. idk, but I have work tomarrow at 2, and I don't even know if I'm going because I have this crazy stye in my eye, and its bothering the hell out of me, and it really really hurts. I'll have to put a hot cloth on it or something..alright, thats enough for me..I'm sick of typing.

<3JOHN
-Ange