chapter 2
last nite was one of the worst nites of my life
my world literally came crashing down on me and i completely lost it for a while...the only thing that i know isnt there anymore..
i miss all-niters with her, i miss arguing about wher to eat, i miss watching tv with her, i miss her stupid dog, i miss cuddling with her, i miss havgin her fall asleep on my every f'ing nite, i miss not having a remote, i miss prom, i miss watching horrible movies at her request, i miss my toothbrush, i miss cancun, i miss getting montezumas revenge together, i miss her smile, i miss her laugh, i miss her unfunny funny stories, i miss her scent, i miss her bed, i miss her stupid music in her car, i miss her stupid sink, i miss her george foreman grill, i miss my steak dinner, i miss going to her house every day, i miss her blowing hookah smoke through her nose, i miss bakers square and ther a-hole burgers, i miss text messaging, i miss anticipating her calls, i miss our vacation plans, i miss doing her homework, i miss hanging up and calling back, i miss slapping each other for hORRible reasons, i miss the purple ones, i miss kissing her, i miss rubbing her back, i miss massages, i miss spending all my money on her and not caring, i miss her wearing my clothes, i miss her stunning looks, i miss her amazing personality
but most of all i miss knowing that ill be with her forever
i was a wreck when we first broke up...but i have done nothing but think in the past 3 sleepless, foodless days and i came to a conclusion --
losing the perfect girlfriend sucks balls, sucks enough balls to cry for hours and explain my heart out to my mom (who i havent told anything important since i wet my pants in 1st grade), enough to drive 40 miles both ways going absolutely no where and listening to swing life away on repeat.
but through all of it, i gained a best friend..a perfect friend, who i happen to have a huge crush on.
im moving in 3 days, and i really dont want to. i dont want to leave her even more than yesterday when we were still together. i want to be her best friend. i need to be her best friend. ive never met a better person in my life and im tearing up even thinking about it.
but i love kazia josette olkowski more than anyone or anything in the world, even though it mite not be the same kind of love as i once hoped it would reach, i have never loved, respected, and appreciated the friendship of a person more than i have with her.
kaz i will miss you more than anything in the world, i guess chapter one of my life is over. we both are moving on to bigger things. but i want you to know that i will always be there for you, i will always miss you, and i will always love you...i iwll still call you everyday, i will still come to your house, visit your stupid dog, sit in you stupid bed (under my f'ing blanket you jacked), and i will never ever ever ever ever forget the best 4-5ish months of my life
i wouldnt trade that time i spent for you for anything in the world
im okay now, ive accepted everything in an optimistic way.
ive realized that having you as a best friend is better than waht everyone else in the world has
basically, i fucking love you -- thats it
my keyboard has a tear from my f'ing left eye on the k key, fitting it would land on kazias favorite key, so im gonna stop writing before i ruin the damn thing
your my heart and soul kazia, even if i have to settle for best friends.
thanks for improving my life by that much
your everyting to me
-always sean
my world literally came crashing down on me and i completely lost it for a while...the only thing that i know isnt there anymore..
i miss all-niters with her, i miss arguing about wher to eat, i miss watching tv with her, i miss her stupid dog, i miss cuddling with her, i miss havgin her fall asleep on my every f'ing nite, i miss not having a remote, i miss prom, i miss watching horrible movies at her request, i miss my toothbrush, i miss cancun, i miss getting montezumas revenge together, i miss her smile, i miss her laugh, i miss her unfunny funny stories, i miss her scent, i miss her bed, i miss her stupid music in her car, i miss her stupid sink, i miss her george foreman grill, i miss my steak dinner, i miss going to her house every day, i miss her blowing hookah smoke through her nose, i miss bakers square and ther a-hole burgers, i miss text messaging, i miss anticipating her calls, i miss our vacation plans, i miss doing her homework, i miss hanging up and calling back, i miss slapping each other for hORRible reasons, i miss the purple ones, i miss kissing her, i miss rubbing her back, i miss massages, i miss spending all my money on her and not caring, i miss her wearing my clothes, i miss her stunning looks, i miss her amazing personality
but most of all i miss knowing that ill be with her forever
i was a wreck when we first broke up...but i have done nothing but think in the past 3 sleepless, foodless days and i came to a conclusion --
losing the perfect girlfriend sucks balls, sucks enough balls to cry for hours and explain my heart out to my mom (who i havent told anything important since i wet my pants in 1st grade), enough to drive 40 miles both ways going absolutely no where and listening to swing life away on repeat.
but through all of it, i gained a best friend..a perfect friend, who i happen to have a huge crush on.
im moving in 3 days, and i really dont want to. i dont want to leave her even more than yesterday when we were still together. i want to be her best friend. i need to be her best friend. ive never met a better person in my life and im tearing up even thinking about it.
but i love kazia josette olkowski more than anyone or anything in the world, even though it mite not be the same kind of love as i once hoped it would reach, i have never loved, respected, and appreciated the friendship of a person more than i have with her.
kaz i will miss you more than anything in the world, i guess chapter one of my life is over. we both are moving on to bigger things. but i want you to know that i will always be there for you, i will always miss you, and i will always love you...i iwll still call you everyday, i will still come to your house, visit your stupid dog, sit in you stupid bed (under my f'ing blanket you jacked), and i will never ever ever ever ever forget the best 4-5ish months of my life
i wouldnt trade that time i spent for you for anything in the world
im okay now, ive accepted everything in an optimistic way.
ive realized that having you as a best friend is better than waht everyone else in the world has
basically, i fucking love you -- thats it
my keyboard has a tear from my f'ing left eye on the k key, fitting it would land on kazias favorite key, so im gonna stop writing before i ruin the damn thing
your my heart and soul kazia, even if i have to settle for best friends.
thanks for improving my life by that much
your everyting to me
-always sean