Annual Review
It has been a year on the isle of Oahu. So what do I have to say about the experience thus far? I am still transitioning. I have felt I should have been doing so many things (writing, expanding social circle, connecting with art/photo studios) but I have not the energy or desire. I busied myself with reading, part time work, spending time with D’s family and questioning my place in the universe. I would say that the strongest thought that continues to arise is the need to just “be”. I think and worry about everything in life and so I end up very exhausted at day’s end.
I find that it is not easy to just “be” or to exist in the moment and savor the entire experience. I often work hard at organizing/analyzing the moments before, during and after an experience that I never truly enjoy it. I think that this opportunity to live in Hawaii has allowed me to have the time to examine my approach to events. Now the question remains “how long will it take for me to just be?” I guess I can still ponder the how as I walk the beach at sunset. May you know peace.