Discovering sticks go with knives

[sitronsyre]

I was thinking,
that perhaps this strange feeling of indifference
these grey days
these restless nights
are all just signs of being bored with myself and my situations?

I am willing to commit changes now
and I've already started on the physics
tonite, chemistry will add colour to my hair

however, the great challenge lies
in regaining focus
I am so close to the win
all I lack is the spark

Hopefully
I will be able to ignite myself
I used to be so good at it.