the news (and my life) (mostly my life)
The news... We still in Iraq, still no WMD's (Weapons of Mass Destruction) the reason we told the world we were going in for... Probably more to add to the death toll and more added to prisoners of a farse war. In local news my dad is moving out of state and I still dont have a job.
My life: I have no perpose but I am not to sure I want to set my self up as a slave to corprate america just yet. I have nothing other than I am going to loose my place of residence and a deep depression. I want to kill something or do something to justify my existence for reasons other than I can, or it would help me in the long run, or make me some money. Money I could go piss in a cup and be a ginny pig for some company if I wanted money. I hate that happyness is tied to having money, and if you want to do anything, or create anything that makes a differance you have to have it and alot of it. It makes me sick that to leave a mark on this word or have people look up to you as a sucess you have to be rich.
I am poor and have no power over what happens to me because I lack money.
I am alone and no one speeks to me, I am so very very far. I know it is stupid but I have thought of suicide I know it is the cowards way out. I know though that someone will go and call the doctors and nurses on me but people if I ever go to a ward or something like that I will have more of a reason then even now to kill myself those places are hell on earth. Maybe I just need to get laid or maybe its part of me dieing. I crave my family but alot of us dont come out of hiding till the summer when it is warm and there is money and comradery to be had easily. I know that alot of my family doesn't like each other. I am tired of sorrow I seek joy and laughter.
My life: I have no perpose but I am not to sure I want to set my self up as a slave to corprate america just yet. I have nothing other than I am going to loose my place of residence and a deep depression. I want to kill something or do something to justify my existence for reasons other than I can, or it would help me in the long run, or make me some money. Money I could go piss in a cup and be a ginny pig for some company if I wanted money. I hate that happyness is tied to having money, and if you want to do anything, or create anything that makes a differance you have to have it and alot of it. It makes me sick that to leave a mark on this word or have people look up to you as a sucess you have to be rich.
I am poor and have no power over what happens to me because I lack money.
I am alone and no one speeks to me, I am so very very far. I know it is stupid but I have thought of suicide I know it is the cowards way out. I know though that someone will go and call the doctors and nurses on me but people if I ever go to a ward or something like that I will have more of a reason then even now to kill myself those places are hell on earth. Maybe I just need to get laid or maybe its part of me dieing. I crave my family but alot of us dont come out of hiding till the summer when it is warm and there is money and comradery to be had easily. I know that alot of my family doesn't like each other. I am tired of sorrow I seek joy and laughter.