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Today was...interesting, to say the least. Woke up at 10:00, went to work for 11:00, after saying 'gmorning to a few of the Neo staffers.
Then spent six hours sitting around doing nothing, because Sunday afternoons at a fast food restaurant are so DEAD!
Came home at 5:30, was told I got a call from my mom. Damn...that reminds me. I gotta call my mom back. heh.
Drag my aching legs (from standing around all day) up to my room, and to my computer...flick my monitor on to see that none other than Keika had returned to the Neo! Was actually quite excited for a bit...I dunno, I guess I kinda felt like crap for the rough start I had at the MUCK, and never really made it up to her since then, as she hasn't been on very often....so I felt like 'here's my 'chance!' sorta thing...I dunno.
Got her to do up Tekiya's stuff for the RocketNet database, everything looked all fine and dandy....and then staff fight.
*siigh* It was almost heartbreaking to watch, really...I mean, I sat there, onchan, my fingers -twitching- to say something, but I knew if I did, I'd only end up involved in something I wasn't meant to be involved in, and would ultimately end up making things worse.
But still...I get this nagging feeling that even had I -tried-...things might have been different. I'm not blaming Keika's resignation on myself...no one person is to blame for that. In the end, it was her own decision, and there's no way to prevent something that's already happened now. But...I dunno, I just keep thinking that I might have been able to at least help in some small way. I mean...I've always been good at stuff like that...when someone's down, I cheer them up.
At the end of it all, everyone ended up completely silent for several minutes...Shade got booted offline for a half hour or so by her dad, and I...almost felt tears welling up after what I had just witnessed.
There's a lot of things I don't like in this world...but of them all...the thing I cannot -stand- to see, is friends fight...especially my own friends. I hate it more than anything. And yet...when it happens, I lack the strength to take myself offchan, or turn my head, while it happens behind my back. I can't stand watching it...but I can't look away. It's odd, really. And even more...I can't stand not being able to do anything about it...sitting there, frozen, while people are getting upset. I feel like I have to do -something- to make it all better...but I just...couldn't.
But, well...whatever. What's done is done, and though I'll semi-regret not stepping in, I'll get over it.
...Wizchat was interesting after that. We had one of those really interesting female discussions. I dunno, perhaps we were all just in a silly mood, trying to push unwanted thoughts out of our minds and such. But, well, it was fun, at least. Kept everyone's mind off of previous events, though it managed to pop up a few times thereafter, but it was our usual wizchat random nonsense bit...had a grand old time.
Went to RP a bit with Nikki and Okibi on the Star Wars MUCK, but just as I @tele'd to the room, I got hauled away on TF to do some TP stuff. A good RP, I might add...ended up RP testing Rizzen for level 3 magic...and decided to grant him level 2, in the end. A decent RPer, but level 3 is some pretty hefty magic.
And, well...now I'm off to bed. *grumbles, and kicks somethign* Have to bloody well get up early 'cause stupid me forgot to look at his work schedule before he left work. Ten minutes after the store closed and everyone went home, I finally realize that, 'Oh, CRAP! I don't know when I work next!'. Went frantic all over wizchat on Neo for a few mins, nnot sure what to do, then finally opted to just get up early tomorrow, and call in and find out when I work. *siigh* Wanted to sleep in...
Anyways, I'm out for the night.
Keika, I never knew you very well, but may the wind always be at your back.
And to everyone else, *HUGS!* I think we all need them
Then spent six hours sitting around doing nothing, because Sunday afternoons at a fast food restaurant are so DEAD!
Came home at 5:30, was told I got a call from my mom. Damn...that reminds me. I gotta call my mom back. heh.
Drag my aching legs (from standing around all day) up to my room, and to my computer...flick my monitor on to see that none other than Keika had returned to the Neo! Was actually quite excited for a bit...I dunno, I guess I kinda felt like crap for the rough start I had at the MUCK, and never really made it up to her since then, as she hasn't been on very often....so I felt like 'here's my 'chance!' sorta thing...I dunno.
Got her to do up Tekiya's stuff for the RocketNet database, everything looked all fine and dandy....and then staff fight.
*siigh* It was almost heartbreaking to watch, really...I mean, I sat there, onchan, my fingers -twitching- to say something, but I knew if I did, I'd only end up involved in something I wasn't meant to be involved in, and would ultimately end up making things worse.
But still...I get this nagging feeling that even had I -tried-...things might have been different. I'm not blaming Keika's resignation on myself...no one person is to blame for that. In the end, it was her own decision, and there's no way to prevent something that's already happened now. But...I dunno, I just keep thinking that I might have been able to at least help in some small way. I mean...I've always been good at stuff like that...when someone's down, I cheer them up.
At the end of it all, everyone ended up completely silent for several minutes...Shade got booted offline for a half hour or so by her dad, and I...almost felt tears welling up after what I had just witnessed.
There's a lot of things I don't like in this world...but of them all...the thing I cannot -stand- to see, is friends fight...especially my own friends. I hate it more than anything. And yet...when it happens, I lack the strength to take myself offchan, or turn my head, while it happens behind my back. I can't stand watching it...but I can't look away. It's odd, really. And even more...I can't stand not being able to do anything about it...sitting there, frozen, while people are getting upset. I feel like I have to do -something- to make it all better...but I just...couldn't.
But, well...whatever. What's done is done, and though I'll semi-regret not stepping in, I'll get over it.
...Wizchat was interesting after that. We had one of those really interesting female discussions. I dunno, perhaps we were all just in a silly mood, trying to push unwanted thoughts out of our minds and such. But, well, it was fun, at least. Kept everyone's mind off of previous events, though it managed to pop up a few times thereafter, but it was our usual wizchat random nonsense bit...had a grand old time.
Went to RP a bit with Nikki and Okibi on the Star Wars MUCK, but just as I @tele'd to the room, I got hauled away on TF to do some TP stuff. A good RP, I might add...ended up RP testing Rizzen for level 3 magic...and decided to grant him level 2, in the end. A decent RPer, but level 3 is some pretty hefty magic.
And, well...now I'm off to bed. *grumbles, and kicks somethign* Have to bloody well get up early 'cause stupid me forgot to look at his work schedule before he left work. Ten minutes after the store closed and everyone went home, I finally realize that, 'Oh, CRAP! I don't know when I work next!'. Went frantic all over wizchat on Neo for a few mins, nnot sure what to do, then finally opted to just get up early tomorrow, and call in and find out when I work. *siigh* Wanted to sleep in...
Anyways, I'm out for the night.
Keika, I never knew you very well, but may the wind always be at your back.
And to everyone else, *HUGS!* I think we all need them