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So I have been absent from the world of cyber-journals and blogging and that kind of stuff. I can't really say that things were so wonderful when I last wrote. I guess I need to be grateful that the future holds oppourtunity and serene escape. It can be very hard to be thankful sometimes.
College...August 13th I leave. Finally, relief from this chaos. It's not all external, however. I need to grow. I need to consider that actions can have any number of consequences. I need to perceive other's possible reactions, viewpoints, morals, feelings...though i think I'm usually good with feelings except that I sometimes catch myself lying because I can't handle any possible disappointment.
I can't wait to take the classes I'm signed up for at Guilford. Not really looking foward to orientation because I don't really do those kinds of things. It's supposed to be fun, so, I could be wrong. A woman at work (Giant) told me that she went to Guilford...she was maybe thirty-five years old, perhaps fourty. She said that she loved it which makes it sound only that much more promising. I think that school must just create a group of people that are truly friendly. I think that Quakerism has some extremely important messages that are not being heard. I don't believe that any religion should be imposed or even seductively done so. However, I do think we should make our voices heard and inform people of our stance more proactively. We need people to find some kind of entity or guiding force that will lead people to abandon the immoral circumstance of the world. I really am going on tangents here. Dad is going psycho, trying to convert me into himself, and to see all things from his own perspective. He won't even let me go to moms house due to his delusions of mom as a bitch and a bad parent. I just need to hold out for 51 more days. Seven more weeks.
College...August 13th I leave. Finally, relief from this chaos. It's not all external, however. I need to grow. I need to consider that actions can have any number of consequences. I need to perceive other's possible reactions, viewpoints, morals, feelings...though i think I'm usually good with feelings except that I sometimes catch myself lying because I can't handle any possible disappointment.
I can't wait to take the classes I'm signed up for at Guilford. Not really looking foward to orientation because I don't really do those kinds of things. It's supposed to be fun, so, I could be wrong. A woman at work (Giant) told me that she went to Guilford...she was maybe thirty-five years old, perhaps fourty. She said that she loved it which makes it sound only that much more promising. I think that school must just create a group of people that are truly friendly. I think that Quakerism has some extremely important messages that are not being heard. I don't believe that any religion should be imposed or even seductively done so. However, I do think we should make our voices heard and inform people of our stance more proactively. We need people to find some kind of entity or guiding force that will lead people to abandon the immoral circumstance of the world. I really am going on tangents here. Dad is going psycho, trying to convert me into himself, and to see all things from his own perspective. He won't even let me go to moms house due to his delusions of mom as a bitch and a bad parent. I just need to hold out for 51 more days. Seven more weeks.