Getting Old
So, 30 then. I dont feel like I am 30. 30 strikes me as an age where I should be settled, have a proper job, a house and mortgage, some kids even. Thirty was always that age where it seems like you should be well into the adult part of your life. Yet here i am ... still renting, back at Uni studying, casual job again, kids still at least a year away. It isnt that i dont want those things, they just dont seem to have happened yet.
Kids keeps being put off because life has been getting in the way - we will just wait until xyz happens. I dont know when we will be able to get our shit together about buying a house. To buy a house near to J's work is too expensive, to buy a house anywhere else means stupid large travel time and expense. Easier to be renting. Had a real job for awhile, but then stopped to go to Uni to get a better real job.
None of this is bad, none of it is necessarily bad, but just not where I saw myself? (I am not sure I have ever seen myself anywhere in particular - no planning, future organising skills here). Is it time for me to grow up? Do I even want to grow up? I am not sure what that means. I will continue to plod I guess and just wait to see where I am at when I turn 35 (or 40).
Kids keeps being put off because life has been getting in the way - we will just wait until xyz happens. I dont know when we will be able to get our shit together about buying a house. To buy a house near to J's work is too expensive, to buy a house anywhere else means stupid large travel time and expense. Easier to be renting. Had a real job for awhile, but then stopped to go to Uni to get a better real job.
None of this is bad, none of it is necessarily bad, but just not where I saw myself? (I am not sure I have ever seen myself anywhere in particular - no planning, future organising skills here). Is it time for me to grow up? Do I even want to grow up? I am not sure what that means. I will continue to plod I guess and just wait to see where I am at when I turn 35 (or 40).