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feel like updating b/c i have nothing better to do;;
So if you dont know anything in the past 2 weeks about brandon
which would be hard to believe since i told everyone
but most of you stopped listening
besides zack, amanda(sister) and carly
One day, i told him i liked him, A LOT, how long, and a lot of other stuff, in a nutshell, everything i type or tell you in person about him, i told him
after a few days, he didnt reply to my message
so i got pissed and sent him like a really mean message, he replied to that, eventually he told me he was just really suprised, and was gonna reply, and i kept asking him what he was gonna say, he never told me
then like every few days i would send him another message saying things like
"it wouldnt hurt as much, if you didnt say all of those things to me", most of you know what im talking about, even look at past entries
then he said so i was supposed to be an asshole to you
YA BECAUSE ITS NORMAL FOR GUYS TO CALL THEIR BUDS SEXY AND LOVE ALL THE TIME
then i said, "its kindof funny, once you found out my favorite band was lit,thats when you started to talk to me different", never replied to that one, and like 3 days ago, i sent him a long ass one saying, stuff like what i did to see if he'd notice, why he was the reason i was always in a bad mood in art, and why it hurts so much that hes not talking to me etc.. he replied to that saying, im sorry for all that i put you through, and i cried for like 2 min, i dont know why
im turning into my sister... HAHAH
THENN
yesterday, Kayla and i were in swimming and starting yelling all of our art inside jokes, and it was really fun, and i started to think how much i missed art and brandon :(
then today kayla and i were gonna run up to brandon and say one of our jokes to him, but we didnt see him,but we saw him on the way to salem, and when we yelled "MY CRAYONS" (long story, probably dont wanna hear it) he just starred at us, and i relized thats the face he always made in art, so that mad me really sad :/
then i sent brandon one last message today saying
good news, i think i dont have feelings for you anymore, i think its just how much i miss you, and the whole art experience, we need to hang out
and he didnt reply, but what ever
then i was talking to kayla online, and i started thinking about brandons voice, i dont know why and it made me cry
its terrible really
but brandons just a tiny bit of my problems
LUNCH= worst time of the day for me
ive been thinking about switching to b lunch
since i hate my 4th hour anyways
meaning i can eat lunch with cj and see brandon more
but ill probably just end up eating like in the bathroom or something
so called best friends, are pretty much complete strangers to me
meaning were falling apart
meaning its only me, thats falling apart
b/c the rest of them are tight as ever
so that pretty much makes my life suck
the only one i feel the same with is ALYSE
so dont worry
speaking of that me and you are hanging out
well thats all in the fucked up life of kt
doubt you would read all of this
So if you dont know anything in the past 2 weeks about brandon
which would be hard to believe since i told everyone
but most of you stopped listening
besides zack, amanda(sister) and carly
One day, i told him i liked him, A LOT, how long, and a lot of other stuff, in a nutshell, everything i type or tell you in person about him, i told him
after a few days, he didnt reply to my message
so i got pissed and sent him like a really mean message, he replied to that, eventually he told me he was just really suprised, and was gonna reply, and i kept asking him what he was gonna say, he never told me
then like every few days i would send him another message saying things like
"it wouldnt hurt as much, if you didnt say all of those things to me", most of you know what im talking about, even look at past entries
then he said so i was supposed to be an asshole to you
YA BECAUSE ITS NORMAL FOR GUYS TO CALL THEIR BUDS SEXY AND LOVE ALL THE TIME
then i said, "its kindof funny, once you found out my favorite band was lit,thats when you started to talk to me different", never replied to that one, and like 3 days ago, i sent him a long ass one saying, stuff like what i did to see if he'd notice, why he was the reason i was always in a bad mood in art, and why it hurts so much that hes not talking to me etc.. he replied to that saying, im sorry for all that i put you through, and i cried for like 2 min, i dont know why
im turning into my sister... HAHAH
THENN
yesterday, Kayla and i were in swimming and starting yelling all of our art inside jokes, and it was really fun, and i started to think how much i missed art and brandon :(
then today kayla and i were gonna run up to brandon and say one of our jokes to him, but we didnt see him,but we saw him on the way to salem, and when we yelled "MY CRAYONS" (long story, probably dont wanna hear it) he just starred at us, and i relized thats the face he always made in art, so that mad me really sad :/
then i sent brandon one last message today saying
good news, i think i dont have feelings for you anymore, i think its just how much i miss you, and the whole art experience, we need to hang out
and he didnt reply, but what ever
then i was talking to kayla online, and i started thinking about brandons voice, i dont know why and it made me cry
its terrible really
but brandons just a tiny bit of my problems
LUNCH= worst time of the day for me
ive been thinking about switching to b lunch
since i hate my 4th hour anyways
meaning i can eat lunch with cj and see brandon more
but ill probably just end up eating like in the bathroom or something
so called best friends, are pretty much complete strangers to me
meaning were falling apart
meaning its only me, thats falling apart
b/c the rest of them are tight as ever
so that pretty much makes my life suck
the only one i feel the same with is ALYSE
so dont worry
speaking of that me and you are hanging out
well thats all in the fucked up life of kt
doubt you would read all of this