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this it the first time that i have felt depressed about me. it feels wierd and i think about it i don't know what or why im depressed about me.well nothing happen today but i fell that i should tell levi that im fed up with him.i wonder how is should tell him my instant reaction is to bitch at him and then kicking his ass but it would not work out and levi is techicly in the closet beacuse there are severe conquences if his parents find out it's on the lines of going to military school and i think that whould be mean on my part because i would be the cause because i beat him up and the school will find out and they'll tell his parents and i dont want that.but he needs to stop i dont like what he's doing and it is frusturating.at lunch today i zoned out on several times and on several occations i wished i didn't like when i zoned out looking at james strech god i feel stupid may be i should go to the doctor but then they will drug test me just to make sure i'm clean and that there is something really wrong.so i can't do that but it is getting worse and when is zone out i hear things so it is progessing to a worst situtation. but i hope that it will stop.hanging out at the tree is starting to get weird jessica and rachel gone and i can't hang out at the table because levi is there and he will hit on me then i will get extremly mad and will hit him and get in trouble and then my parents will find out about my problems and i can't have that. so i guess i will have to talk to him in a calm but serious matter and he better understand.i hope i will ble so to six flags with michelle that would be very cool. iwill finsh this later k