your beautiful embarrassment....
wouldn't it be lovely to give up? give up on that thing you've put so much thought and work into for so long? give up so that you would have just one last shread of pain and be able to push the rest into the darkness? give up so that you could stop waiting and feeling stupid when it doesn't come? give up so that you don't have to obsess over it anymore? give up so that you can stop drawing little doodles and thinking little fantasys and soaking in depression? WOULDN'T IT BE FUCKING NICE? yea, yes it would be...