More NEWS!!
Well I just talked with the DR today and I have been diagnosed with two conditions...
I am borderline Diabetic
I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome
I will have to be on treatment for a long time with the PCOS. I feel that I can control the other with diet. The PCOS will mean that tiny almost nearly impossible chance of ever having a child is gone. I am feeling pretty damn incomplete as a woman. I always had this idea of what path my life would follow and this was the time when I was supposed to have my children and be making silly Halloween costumes and wiping runny noses and kissing boo-boos. I have cried a little this morning...but I am still in a state of shock. No this isn't life threatening, but it does mean that I will never be complete as a woman. I will skip the mother phase and head right for the crone. With everything elese that is going on right now, I feel like I am lost in a very deep well and instead of someone or something drawing me up and out of the darkness, each breath I take something comes along and pours more posion inside. This weighs me down and makes me sink to the most unreachable depths. Its cold down here.
I am borderline Diabetic
I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome
I will have to be on treatment for a long time with the PCOS. I feel that I can control the other with diet. The PCOS will mean that tiny almost nearly impossible chance of ever having a child is gone. I am feeling pretty damn incomplete as a woman. I always had this idea of what path my life would follow and this was the time when I was supposed to have my children and be making silly Halloween costumes and wiping runny noses and kissing boo-boos. I have cried a little this morning...but I am still in a state of shock. No this isn't life threatening, but it does mean that I will never be complete as a woman. I will skip the mother phase and head right for the crone. With everything elese that is going on right now, I feel like I am lost in a very deep well and instead of someone or something drawing me up and out of the darkness, each breath I take something comes along and pours more posion inside. This weighs me down and makes me sink to the most unreachable depths. Its cold down here.