The Day Approaches...
WEll, my big birth day is coming soon and I will be forever past my freshness date. My day started out really shitty and progressed to more and more frustrating as the minutes ticked by.I wake up PMSing (which means that for my birthday, Mother Nature has chosen to remind me that I am still an un breeding woman) and find out that my teeth are killing me. I tell certain parties that I am in no way shape or form able to provide that needed emotional support, and I end up getting called a selfish-heartless-money grubbing-bitch and I snapped.
I agree that I am a bitch. I am delighted to be so considered by those many that know me, but I am not mean to those who do not merit it in some way. I bite my tongue so much sometimes that it's a wonder I have not removed the end. Needless to say this sapped what tiny amount of reserve I had left and I waited till I was alone to break down.
Guys, why is it okay for a man to turn 30 and still be deemed as attractive and when a woman turns 30 it's like...bring out the dead and toss her in a box. I am turning 30. I am still the person I was before the freshness seal is popped. I would be lying to say that it doesn't matter to me. It does. I want to be seen as the person I am not the age that I am. If anything I think I deserve credit for not giving up and making it this far.
Needless to say, I am having a bad day. The only thing good that has happened today is that the OM agreed to move to an apartment. It's going to save us money and that means alot at the moment.
I agree that I am a bitch. I am delighted to be so considered by those many that know me, but I am not mean to those who do not merit it in some way. I bite my tongue so much sometimes that it's a wonder I have not removed the end. Needless to say this sapped what tiny amount of reserve I had left and I waited till I was alone to break down.
Guys, why is it okay for a man to turn 30 and still be deemed as attractive and when a woman turns 30 it's like...bring out the dead and toss her in a box. I am turning 30. I am still the person I was before the freshness seal is popped. I would be lying to say that it doesn't matter to me. It does. I want to be seen as the person I am not the age that I am. If anything I think I deserve credit for not giving up and making it this far.
Needless to say, I am having a bad day. The only thing good that has happened today is that the OM agreed to move to an apartment. It's going to save us money and that means alot at the moment.