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uhm so here i am at home, im sickkkkly. tehehe. and delerious cos i've been hitting the drugs. it's cold in my house.
so my life has been the opposite of good lately. i duno, i feel like everyone is different. which isnt true, cos they arent. but my relationships with people are becoming closer and better, and it's scaring me because i realized i depend on people too much. so if all my friends for some reason decide to leave me, i dont know what id do. yes i do. move to puerto rico and start my life over as a cocaine dealer. but barring that, i duno.
i worry what ashley martin thinks of me. i dont know why. yesterday first period she waved to me cos we were both in the library, and she came over to talk. then ashley moyer came and it was a good time. but everything i say sounds stupid around her. its like i need to prove something, but i dont know what or how to prove what i dont know what im proving... you know? we basically talked about band, and shes one of the people that doesnt annoy me when they talk about band. people who worship band irritate me, but she's at a medium somewhat, so the conversation was fun. we talked about how diff. band will be next year (WE only having like, three trumpets? glad im graduating this year lol), how it's annoying to sit in front of the bari saxes cos they're always loud, how me n ashley moyer want to learn sax but i duno who to ask to teach me. we even ventured into how ashley likes someone and such, but i guess i looked weird or something because she dropped it pretty quick. maybe she feels sorry for me cos of we all know what. i duno, she shouldnt. but now that i think im friends with her im scared of fucking it up somehow. so yah.
i also worry about what brian thinks of me. im not sure why that is either, and i dont have a story to back it up. it's just the way it is.
so anyyyway, went on livefortravis just to see what was up, i always swore id come back to using it, but i havent yet. konstantine is fine, even tho poeple IM me and are like, "you're hot!" and i have to explain im not the german one. i found a shit load of away messages on livefortravis, and im posting some of them because they make me laugh, and im at a point where i need to laugh more.
FhornHackr: Now pick a number between 1 and 31
LiveForTravis182: 27
FhornHackr: God, you're so wrong
ChocolateOcelot: what up?
konstantine2386: lol if you really wanna know, im decided what underwear i wanna wear to wear to band tonight
ChocolateOcelot: what kind? i want details
CpnJackSparrow07: *strokes beard*
livefortravis182: *twirls moustache*... i mean...
CpnJackSparrow07: its ok, us hairy women have to unite
i tYpe funNy 27: and i know he wont but grrrrrrrrrrrrr
i tYpe funNy 27: i just want to have a sword fight with that kid
Last Of October: can we have a dance party?
liveofrtravis182: k, we will at 12:47
Last Of October: remember the time difference, i live in woodridge
microphobia3412: i was goin to go to the ice cream social but then i remembered that all the people i socialize with wouldn't be there
Mulunkey: Mom called and said she wanted to get lunch
Mulunkey: and you can come
Mulunkey: JOLLY HAPPY FAMILY TIME SUPER AMERICAN #1!!!!!!!!!!!1111111one
UrbanKayaker2876: im ou
UrbanKayaker2876: tout
UrbanKayaker2876: ot
UrbanKayaker2876: OUT!
scottt106: speaking of which,
scottt106: i'm not wearing any pants
scottt106: because mine are in the freezer
seawolfclassCO: dont make me say fuck
seawolfclassCO: DAMNIT KATHREN HURRY THE FUCK UP!
seawolfclassCO: there you made me say it
Sprinkles6987: YOU LOST THE MISSION YOU WHORE
Sprinkles6987: lol i was kidding...
Sprinkles6987: ...you dont have to keep up your away message... you can come back now...im not really mad...
Jvcody71887: i kicked him in the balls
Jvcody71887: but yah! he was too fat to feel it
Jvcody71887: all that hard work and energy, didn't even work
your letdown: i want a rhyming goat
your letdown: to dance with
livefortravis182: nooo emaaaail : (
scottt106: try again with yahoo, but with a couple more sexual comments
scottt106: be like... "i wanna search you all night long!"
LiveForTravis182: thats raunchy
seawolfclassCO: raunchy sounds cool
seawolfclassCO: lets all be raunchy
livefortravis182: you're a bad boy
Sprinkles6987: yeah i am, fear me *rawr*
Brittster323: ohh well there is a picture of you in like, his drawer
livefortravis182: with his underwear?
Brittster323: no, he wears them...
Defiant729: u know that insult, ur so stupid u tripped over a cordless phone....u can actually trip over one of those fones...i just tripped on the fone part...and im not stupid..well not so stupid insults can be made for me
iLuVuLoTs214: well your a ball park wierner
iLuVuLoTs214: the ones that plump when they are cooked
iLuVuLoTs214: AND THATS WHAT I JUST DID TO YOU
iLuVuLoTs214: buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurn *i smell hotdogs*
LiveForTravis182: are you a whore?
Murder4Death: only on weekends
LiveForTravis182: that blond archer guy will kick your ass and steal your TV
sKuDzOr: no way...although he does have that crazy sword
LiveForTravis182: and he never runs out of arrows
sKuDzOr: *hands legelus my TV*
and now random lyrics, that are not random. hahaha yah...
I never thought
I'd walk away from you
I did
But it's false sense
of accomplishment