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can I just say how tired I am of being blamed for everything that has gone bad in peoples lives, today my fiancee' basically blamed me for all of the crap going on in the apartment. Apparently I am responsible for Melissa moving out with katie, and us eventually having to move because of it. I am supposed to apologize for kicking katie out when both Melissa and I made the decision after much deliberation. I will only take responsibility for my actions where jesse and I are concerned, but I will not take responsibility for everything that is wrong with jkh's life, I am not responsible for all the ills that have befallen him or anyone else, I made a mistake and now I am being treated like satan himself. I think it is high time that people started acknowledging there own responsibility for their own crap. I have accepted my part in the bull, and I have to deal with the consequences of my actions, I blame no one individual for the crap that has gone on in my life in the last year, save for myself. I have put my emotional well being in the hands of people I thought capable of dealing with it, thus making them responsible for my happiness, this was unfair of me and I realize that now. I am not going to be the scapegoat for all that is wrong in someone else's life, I can no longer allow anyone to use me in that way, and I will no longer pussyfoot around my house to make it comfortable for someone because they are pissed off at me. I was not alone in any of the drama, so why should I take all of the blame, I am responsible for my actions and my actions alone. Thanks for hearing me out, I needed to vent my spleen, more for my own benefit than for anyone else's. And now I am truly free.