What's up ya'll?????
Hey everyone!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DORIAN!!!!! I love you! Hope you had a great b-day. TWENTY-SIX! Holy cow....my baby's growin up ya'll! lol...anyhow! Had a blast today with Els. Hope you liked it Dor. We had fun makin all that stuff. I wanted to eat your cake so bad though. Chocolate FUDGE was starin back at me. I was cravin sugar so bad today. I kept picking up things and looking at them wishing I could eat them. I was hungry today. Yuck.
Just got home from class. It went by pretty fast tonight. GRATEFUL. I hate it when my night class crawls by. I'm ready for this semester to be over. I have a Economics test on Wednesday. Not excited about that, I hope I do better on this one than I did on the last one.
In my Interpersonal Communications class we've been having to do these formal discussions. We each get up there explain a term from a list that the teacher gave us at the beginning of the semester. I did mine last week (first person to do it at all, AWFUL!), and we had three girls do it today. Well the last girl did it on a term about listening but doing it attackingly and using it against the speaker. Like lawyers do when cross-examining. Well she came up with a 'debate' for two people to do in the class today that would kinda show us how this term is used. She said, I need two people and the topic is abortion. Obviously she needed one for it and one against it. Everyone in the class was for it, except me of course. Well I'm sooooo MAD at myself, cuz I wouldn't stand up and say I'm against it. I know that I would've stood up there and sounded like an idiot cuz I'm not a debater. I can't think of anything to say right off the top of my head. When I get nervous, I clam up and can't think of anything to say, and I sound retarded. PLUS, I have like these really I don't know what you call them people, is it liberal? in my class. So this one girl goes, I'll pretend that I'm for it. The entire time, I was sitting there, wishing I would've just gone up there. Like who cares what others think of me. It bothers me so bad that I didn't stand up for something that I believe it (against abortion!). I mean I had the chance, and I didn't take it. It was the first time I've ever been confronted with that kind of a thing. I've never been put in a position to take a stand like that. I failed, but I pray I don't next time.
I'm sorry Lord, I feel so awful. I know I could've said what I believed no matter how stupid I thought I would've sounded, and you could've taken that and it might've made a difference in someone's life. God I pray that the next time I would have the courage to stand up for what I believe in. Forgive me Jesus. Help me to learn from this. I pray I don't disappoint you again.
This whole secular thing is still new for me. Work, school, and all that jazz. I've been so used to my little Christian bubble my whole life. School, work, church, it's definitely a shocker to me to have these subjects brought up in a class room and everyone being all for something that's totally opposite from me. I mean, yeah, we've brought up these topics/discussions in my class, but everyone's always been on the same side as me. Like my teachers would always ask, what if this happened to you, what would you do? I thought I was prepared to handle something like this, but I guess I wasn't.
Any thoughts? Suggestions?
I work tomorrow from 10:30-5:30. Not a long day, only 7 hours, and it'll seem a breeze compared to this weekend. Anytime I don't have to close, it's a breeze. I hate closing.
Well hey, I've gotta go potty real quick (drank like five glasses of water since like 4:30), and then I have some homework for Wednesday I need to finish so I can study tomorrow night for my Economics test! Yay, for me! LOADS of fun I will be having. I wanna get to bed early too. Els and I are going walkin tomorrow morning at like 7:30/8. YUCK. I hate mornings! Oh well....gotta work off this weight! :D
I'll chat with ya'll later! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
Love, Beck :)
P.S. Dorian....THIS IS YOUR BIRTHDAY SONG.................IT ISN'T VERY LONG.............HEY!!!!!!!!!!!
(There, I sang to you, I hope I was the first!)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DORIAN!!!!! I love you! Hope you had a great b-day. TWENTY-SIX! Holy cow....my baby's growin up ya'll! lol...anyhow! Had a blast today with Els. Hope you liked it Dor. We had fun makin all that stuff. I wanted to eat your cake so bad though. Chocolate FUDGE was starin back at me. I was cravin sugar so bad today. I kept picking up things and looking at them wishing I could eat them. I was hungry today. Yuck.
Just got home from class. It went by pretty fast tonight. GRATEFUL. I hate it when my night class crawls by. I'm ready for this semester to be over. I have a Economics test on Wednesday. Not excited about that, I hope I do better on this one than I did on the last one.
In my Interpersonal Communications class we've been having to do these formal discussions. We each get up there explain a term from a list that the teacher gave us at the beginning of the semester. I did mine last week (first person to do it at all, AWFUL!), and we had three girls do it today. Well the last girl did it on a term about listening but doing it attackingly and using it against the speaker. Like lawyers do when cross-examining. Well she came up with a 'debate' for two people to do in the class today that would kinda show us how this term is used. She said, I need two people and the topic is abortion. Obviously she needed one for it and one against it. Everyone in the class was for it, except me of course. Well I'm sooooo MAD at myself, cuz I wouldn't stand up and say I'm against it. I know that I would've stood up there and sounded like an idiot cuz I'm not a debater. I can't think of anything to say right off the top of my head. When I get nervous, I clam up and can't think of anything to say, and I sound retarded. PLUS, I have like these really I don't know what you call them people, is it liberal? in my class. So this one girl goes, I'll pretend that I'm for it. The entire time, I was sitting there, wishing I would've just gone up there. Like who cares what others think of me. It bothers me so bad that I didn't stand up for something that I believe it (against abortion!). I mean I had the chance, and I didn't take it. It was the first time I've ever been confronted with that kind of a thing. I've never been put in a position to take a stand like that. I failed, but I pray I don't next time.
I'm sorry Lord, I feel so awful. I know I could've said what I believed no matter how stupid I thought I would've sounded, and you could've taken that and it might've made a difference in someone's life. God I pray that the next time I would have the courage to stand up for what I believe in. Forgive me Jesus. Help me to learn from this. I pray I don't disappoint you again.
This whole secular thing is still new for me. Work, school, and all that jazz. I've been so used to my little Christian bubble my whole life. School, work, church, it's definitely a shocker to me to have these subjects brought up in a class room and everyone being all for something that's totally opposite from me. I mean, yeah, we've brought up these topics/discussions in my class, but everyone's always been on the same side as me. Like my teachers would always ask, what if this happened to you, what would you do? I thought I was prepared to handle something like this, but I guess I wasn't.
Any thoughts? Suggestions?
I work tomorrow from 10:30-5:30. Not a long day, only 7 hours, and it'll seem a breeze compared to this weekend. Anytime I don't have to close, it's a breeze. I hate closing.
Well hey, I've gotta go potty real quick (drank like five glasses of water since like 4:30), and then I have some homework for Wednesday I need to finish so I can study tomorrow night for my Economics test! Yay, for me! LOADS of fun I will be having. I wanna get to bed early too. Els and I are going walkin tomorrow morning at like 7:30/8. YUCK. I hate mornings! Oh well....gotta work off this weight! :D
I'll chat with ya'll later! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
Love, Beck :)
P.S. Dorian....THIS IS YOUR BIRTHDAY SONG.................IT ISN'T VERY LONG.............HEY!!!!!!!!!!!
(There, I sang to you, I hope I was the first!)