Sorry.....had to do it.
Why did you have to lie to me? Why you? I gave you everything I had and you are going to lie to me like I am nothing, like he used to lie to me. You know everything that we have had to go through and you are going to throw that all away for her? Fine. Have her. Have her and leave me here just like the boy in front of you did. I should be used to it by now. I should have learned my lesson. I should have turned the other way when I had the chance. To hell with it and to hell with you and your lies. I can do better than you....I hope.
I hate being afraid of being alone. It is the one thing that I am truly scared of. What if we arn't together anymore...and you find someone to love you better than I did. What if no one wants me anymore? I am so afraid of being by myself because I have forgotten how to do it. I have been in and out of relationships since my freshman year. That is a long time to have a boy almost always by my side. I am scared to find out what I would be like without a boy, or maybe run into the wrong one again.
Why do I give people the power to control my heart. I hate it. I wish I hated you.
I hate being afraid of being alone. It is the one thing that I am truly scared of. What if we arn't together anymore...and you find someone to love you better than I did. What if no one wants me anymore? I am so afraid of being by myself because I have forgotten how to do it. I have been in and out of relationships since my freshman year. That is a long time to have a boy almost always by my side. I am scared to find out what I would be like without a boy, or maybe run into the wrong one again.
Why do I give people the power to control my heart. I hate it. I wish I hated you.