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i had a bad day yesterday.
i hate how through all of our differences, my mom can tell something is wrong and the extremity of the situation in the first 3 seconds of a phone call. the strange woman knows me too well.
i had such a bad headache yesterday i slept for about 12 hours, and i could probably sleep for another 12.
and something tells me i'm going to get another headache tonight.
so at 3:30 i'm driving to Stella's Coffeehouse
and i realized there is nothing i can do, my life is the way it is. And i can sit and cry, but i don't want to spend everyday wishing for things that aren't. So all i can do take it as it comes day by day. find things to smile about and reasons to love my life. after all no one else will ever get to be meeee or walk in my shoes or see the world like i see the world, so i might as well enjoy every moment that this world has given to me. things could be worse, things could always be worse.
it doesn't make things less shitty or easier to deal with. but at least i can deal with a smile on my face.
i don't know. we'll see what the day brings.
i hate how through all of our differences, my mom can tell something is wrong and the extremity of the situation in the first 3 seconds of a phone call. the strange woman knows me too well.
i had such a bad headache yesterday i slept for about 12 hours, and i could probably sleep for another 12.
and something tells me i'm going to get another headache tonight.
so at 3:30 i'm driving to Stella's Coffeehouse
and i realized there is nothing i can do, my life is the way it is. And i can sit and cry, but i don't want to spend everyday wishing for things that aren't. So all i can do take it as it comes day by day. find things to smile about and reasons to love my life. after all no one else will ever get to be meeee or walk in my shoes or see the world like i see the world, so i might as well enjoy every moment that this world has given to me. things could be worse, things could always be worse.
it doesn't make things less shitty or easier to deal with. but at least i can deal with a smile on my face.
i don't know. we'll see what the day brings.