Things maybe looking up for me yet my past haunts me
Yesterday I had a 2nd opinion from my doctor to check the results of previous doctor's lab results...It was unlikely the tests had an error because they took my DNA...So I definitely have the disease. It has been three weeks since I received disturbing news and what I learned as follows:
Someone is lying with the intimacy dept.
Discovered from the doctor's that I have never been tested for it, therefore I may not when or who I got it from..
It was pure luck my ex dodge the bullet..
If I am the carrier, my health is endangered..
Realize that I will never find my answers...
I have to accept that it is a mystery why I had this and best thing is to be cleared from it.
I was commended as a responsible human being for informing my present...
That my past will haunt sooner or later...
I had a premiscuous past after dating my first ex and before meeting my current ex...
At this point of my life, I am scared to be intimate with someone fearing that I will get something else...I am at the age where I want to settle down and being with someone for the rest of my life. I thought I had it with Dave, but it seemed neither of us was ready to commit...I do appreciate now my friendship with him which I hate to lose nor does him..I maybe his only ex he can keep in touch with and I accept that...Like I said, "Time will Tell"...
I hate to think that my past and the recent discoveries may lead me be someday infertile..I want to have kids someday but if it turns out I can't have that, that's ok...I accepted it...
Do I regret my partying in past..No, it's once of lifetime and at the time I wanted to live through it and I did...
Now I'm at my office sending out resume to companies around the Northeast awaiting for their response...Hopefully I start to live my life soon after graduation.
Someone is lying with the intimacy dept.
Discovered from the doctor's that I have never been tested for it, therefore I may not when or who I got it from..
It was pure luck my ex dodge the bullet..
If I am the carrier, my health is endangered..
Realize that I will never find my answers...
I have to accept that it is a mystery why I had this and best thing is to be cleared from it.
I was commended as a responsible human being for informing my present...
That my past will haunt sooner or later...
I had a premiscuous past after dating my first ex and before meeting my current ex...
At this point of my life, I am scared to be intimate with someone fearing that I will get something else...I am at the age where I want to settle down and being with someone for the rest of my life. I thought I had it with Dave, but it seemed neither of us was ready to commit...I do appreciate now my friendship with him which I hate to lose nor does him..I maybe his only ex he can keep in touch with and I accept that...Like I said, "Time will Tell"...
I hate to think that my past and the recent discoveries may lead me be someday infertile..I want to have kids someday but if it turns out I can't have that, that's ok...I accepted it...
Do I regret my partying in past..No, it's once of lifetime and at the time I wanted to live through it and I did...
Now I'm at my office sending out resume to companies around the Northeast awaiting for their response...Hopefully I start to live my life soon after graduation.