It's been over a month I've been working...
and I hate one thing: SURPRISES!
Over weeks working by myself and the replacement is gone, I came to realize that the person who I replaced was useless. I mean not useless for the company, but useless for me. 2 weeks ago before my boss went off for vacation, he apologized that I didn't have enough training. Rather than 3 weeks of training, I should have 6 weeks. Regardless how much time I've been trained, I didnot learn the important details of my job and learned the hard way through colleagues who scolded me. Everyone asked "Do you know this."
My usual reply, "I was not aware of this" or "I donot know"
Dave told me "A mentor never reveal many tricks"
So I have received that and thensome. In fact there is one thing I learned from her, how to plan a wedding. As days gone by before her departure, she would constantly discussed her wedding. Though I was not invited, I knew exactly how it would plan. The funny part of this experience was giving up on her advice. She was not reliable, liked she didn't care. I know she has some projects she finishing for our company.
Lately I had nightmares, that after 3 months of working (probationary time), the company releases me and rehires the person I replaced back. I'm nervous since she doesn't have a job lined up, they would rehire but have that position at the location she's now residing.
It's a shameful feeling, but I can never fit in.
It dawned on me this week. My secretary started being cold since a project meeting. My coworkers talked among themselves at the company party this evening leaving Dave and I out.
There are times I want to lash out and punch any of the females..At first were the males, then I came to realize- they were in same boat that I was, rarely talked unless pressed for entertainment, work quietly and in long hours. Ate quietly and quickly to get back to work.
Thank goodness Dave gave me gym membership pass to release those tensions.
But there are times that I want to crawl under a rock and curl up. Wish to end the day and hope for something better.
Tomorrow I will start another promo- this time it's for the holiday season. I would really like to spend a weekend, back at the office- cleaning out all the files. Though she made her work look effortlessly, I noticed cracks and plenty of disorganization piled in folders. At this point, I'm taking my friend's advice, "If someone confronts you on mistake- take notes- make a precedent not to repeat again."
This is going to be a bumpy roller coaster ride and I have a feeling people are not going to like me.
Over weeks working by myself and the replacement is gone, I came to realize that the person who I replaced was useless. I mean not useless for the company, but useless for me. 2 weeks ago before my boss went off for vacation, he apologized that I didn't have enough training. Rather than 3 weeks of training, I should have 6 weeks. Regardless how much time I've been trained, I didnot learn the important details of my job and learned the hard way through colleagues who scolded me. Everyone asked "Do you know this."
My usual reply, "I was not aware of this" or "I donot know"
Dave told me "A mentor never reveal many tricks"
So I have received that and thensome. In fact there is one thing I learned from her, how to plan a wedding. As days gone by before her departure, she would constantly discussed her wedding. Though I was not invited, I knew exactly how it would plan. The funny part of this experience was giving up on her advice. She was not reliable, liked she didn't care. I know she has some projects she finishing for our company.
Lately I had nightmares, that after 3 months of working (probationary time), the company releases me and rehires the person I replaced back. I'm nervous since she doesn't have a job lined up, they would rehire but have that position at the location she's now residing.
It's a shameful feeling, but I can never fit in.
It dawned on me this week. My secretary started being cold since a project meeting. My coworkers talked among themselves at the company party this evening leaving Dave and I out.
There are times I want to lash out and punch any of the females..At first were the males, then I came to realize- they were in same boat that I was, rarely talked unless pressed for entertainment, work quietly and in long hours. Ate quietly and quickly to get back to work.
Thank goodness Dave gave me gym membership pass to release those tensions.
But there are times that I want to crawl under a rock and curl up. Wish to end the day and hope for something better.
Tomorrow I will start another promo- this time it's for the holiday season. I would really like to spend a weekend, back at the office- cleaning out all the files. Though she made her work look effortlessly, I noticed cracks and plenty of disorganization piled in folders. At this point, I'm taking my friend's advice, "If someone confronts you on mistake- take notes- make a precedent not to repeat again."
This is going to be a bumpy roller coaster ride and I have a feeling people are not going to like me.