It's all coming back to me
There were moments of cold and there were flashes of light.
Just kidding.
Seriously though, I feel as though a long-dormant portion of my brain is rubbing the sleep from its eyes and blinking in the sunlight. My ability to speak and communicate is coming back, and I'm glad to have it back. After having spent so much time talking to Kasi online, I'm remembering how I used to be eloquent and charming. Once I had charmed Nikki, I needed to do so little to keep her interested that I got out of practice. We hardly ever talked, online or in person, and when we did, it was just utilitarian stuff about when we were going to get together. Kasi is already charmed by me, but I feel the need to keep it up more than I did with Nikki. Granted, it's still early, and Nikki and I talked more early on, but this feels different. I feel completely open in sharing myself with Kasi, like there's nothing to hide, and nothing to be gained by hiding it. I don't have to impress her with anything other than my honesty. The fact that I can be honest means I spend less time trying to sugarcoat what I'm saying, or phrase it in a way that won't upset her, and more time being lyrical and eloquent. I'm rediscovering what it means to be well spoken, or at least well typed. It helps that Kasi is very good at expressing herself online. We're truly having a dialog, instead of just two people talking at each other. I can't wait to see what other gems come out of my increasingly fertile mind.
Just kidding.
Seriously though, I feel as though a long-dormant portion of my brain is rubbing the sleep from its eyes and blinking in the sunlight. My ability to speak and communicate is coming back, and I'm glad to have it back. After having spent so much time talking to Kasi online, I'm remembering how I used to be eloquent and charming. Once I had charmed Nikki, I needed to do so little to keep her interested that I got out of practice. We hardly ever talked, online or in person, and when we did, it was just utilitarian stuff about when we were going to get together. Kasi is already charmed by me, but I feel the need to keep it up more than I did with Nikki. Granted, it's still early, and Nikki and I talked more early on, but this feels different. I feel completely open in sharing myself with Kasi, like there's nothing to hide, and nothing to be gained by hiding it. I don't have to impress her with anything other than my honesty. The fact that I can be honest means I spend less time trying to sugarcoat what I'm saying, or phrase it in a way that won't upset her, and more time being lyrical and eloquent. I'm rediscovering what it means to be well spoken, or at least well typed. It helps that Kasi is very good at expressing herself online. We're truly having a dialog, instead of just two people talking at each other. I can't wait to see what other gems come out of my increasingly fertile mind.