...And I don't remember why I came

[sirthinkalot]

I'm a rat trapped in a cage. I can't stand this place, nor handle it anymore. All I know is, I need to get out. I see myself withdrawing from everyone, and everything. I have no appitite. The stress is triggering my migrains, and on random nights I'm vomiting blood. I am in hell, and there is no escape. Someone, anyone.....nvm.

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[azibeth]

I know you prolly don't care to talk to me, seeing as you always ask who I am, and then I hardly ever hear back once you know it's me, and I'm sorry for that. But I thought we were still friends and such, so I'm still trying. I send you pictures of Joshua via phone, but I dunno if you get them. I don't care one way or the other about us not dating, but I'm not about to let you walk away completly. I don't care if that makes me selfish, or whatever... really I don't. We have a son, and it's as simple as that. It's not like I'm out to steal you back from Angela, that would prolly only make both of us twice as miserable as we are now. I wished I could have talked to you, since Sasha died, but Adam helped me through it, he's been there for me a lot lately.

It would be nice to hear from you once in a while even if it was just to talk to Joshua or something. I dunno why I suddenly deserved to be iced like this, and I figure I deserve to know, but I don't really care. If you don't want to be there for me that's fine. But you could still write letters to Joshua, let him hear your voice on the phone. He misses you and he needed to know you're still there for him. Other then that, it's whatever.