July 28th, 2012
No sleep. Just fear. And loathing. I feel so helpless and trapped in my body right now. So confined to mediocrity. My feet are dragging me down and I don't have the energy tonight to try walking anymore and I know I'm being petty and selfish but I just want the confidence to wear sandals and tank tops and not stare at my hands and lips all day for fears of unknown nonexistent blemishes.
I almost want to stay home and not go to the cottage. I'm getting closer to that decision every minute I can't sleep.
I expect perfection from myself, but I've stagnated and become diseased with such typical, topical, common things. I'm so common.
No sleep.
I almost want to stay home and not go to the cottage. I'm getting closer to that decision every minute I can't sleep.
I expect perfection from myself, but I've stagnated and become diseased with such typical, topical, common things. I'm so common.
No sleep.