Mother Truckers.
Well...
I'm updating again. Cause I feel like it dammit, and cause people told me to. I think that now that I have some mildly interesting things to say I might actually get decent posts out of this damn thing.
Starting with my current situation: I'm single, tired, sore, bored, and not emotionally attached to anyone anymore. These are all products of my own decisions and actions and I don't want any pity or empathy out of you people. I get enough of that from real people in real life. I'd rather use this journal to vent and just get things I can't say out in the open said. Like how even though I don't want to admit it, I fuck up A LOT. Mostly with girls/women. I say that because at this point in my life that matters. Also, the girls/women thing is significant because there is a difference between a 15 year old girl and a 15 year old woman. I make the deviation between the two based on maturity and intelligence rather than breast size, although, I will admit this wholeheartedly, that is a factor. I'm being brutally honest, I am a teenage male, and breasts are important to me. Thats life. I'm not shallow, I'm honest. 99% of guys in this town will have the same feeling, though hardly any will admit it. Please don't take this entry as me coming out ranting "I'm horny, and I'm a bastard, gimme tits n gimme beer!" because those of you who know me know I'm hardly at all like that. In all honesty, I'm pretty emotional, and certain people will vouch for me on that. Anyone with whom I've discussed relationships with knows exactly what I mean and can verify that I'm really not an ass at all, I just act like one in public because I'm insecure with who I really am because I don't know what I really am. I'm glad I got that out, because hopefully more people will realize what I'm trying to say and possibly I'll become less of a shallow, egotistical ass hole to impress people or make myself seem better. Sorry I'm so under-confident with my abilities as a human being to function in society that I lash out at people. It's my nature, and I'm working on it. Maybe that's why I like football so much.
I'm updating again. Cause I feel like it dammit, and cause people told me to. I think that now that I have some mildly interesting things to say I might actually get decent posts out of this damn thing.
Starting with my current situation: I'm single, tired, sore, bored, and not emotionally attached to anyone anymore. These are all products of my own decisions and actions and I don't want any pity or empathy out of you people. I get enough of that from real people in real life. I'd rather use this journal to vent and just get things I can't say out in the open said. Like how even though I don't want to admit it, I fuck up A LOT. Mostly with girls/women. I say that because at this point in my life that matters. Also, the girls/women thing is significant because there is a difference between a 15 year old girl and a 15 year old woman. I make the deviation between the two based on maturity and intelligence rather than breast size, although, I will admit this wholeheartedly, that is a factor. I'm being brutally honest, I am a teenage male, and breasts are important to me. Thats life. I'm not shallow, I'm honest. 99% of guys in this town will have the same feeling, though hardly any will admit it. Please don't take this entry as me coming out ranting "I'm horny, and I'm a bastard, gimme tits n gimme beer!" because those of you who know me know I'm hardly at all like that. In all honesty, I'm pretty emotional, and certain people will vouch for me on that. Anyone with whom I've discussed relationships with knows exactly what I mean and can verify that I'm really not an ass at all, I just act like one in public because I'm insecure with who I really am because I don't know what I really am. I'm glad I got that out, because hopefully more people will realize what I'm trying to say and possibly I'll become less of a shallow, egotistical ass hole to impress people or make myself seem better. Sorry I'm so under-confident with my abilities as a human being to function in society that I lash out at people. It's my nature, and I'm working on it. Maybe that's why I like football so much.