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And as i type this words of love, lust and hate, i burn in the deeps of hell. There so much you can do for a person like me. There's just so little one person can offer that would make me truly happy. Not money, not cars, maybe bass guitars will do the trick. I just want to be emotionally stable again. Loved and be loved with no regrets, no shame, no sympaty. Just be loved b the ones close to me. In fact that would make me happy too. Be close to people again. I feel so distantfrom everyone not physically but emotionally. I just hurt myself so bad, and the worst part is that i know this, i ackowlegde it, and i hide deep so i don't have to deal with it. I look for the worst in people, just so i have an excuse not to trust them or be close with them.
I've also realize how much i cared about the little things. Sometimes i don't let them go, causing me a lot of trouble when well you know what i mean. My main concern right now, at this point of my life, is the fact that i don't how it feels to be loved by someone that's not you family or friends. You know, love someone you can actually have an intimate relationship with, (yes someone you can fuck, you bunch of pricks)you know what i mean. i have experience sex and i have loved someone, but i never have both. it sucks. im tired of having one nights stands with people. Im tired of fucking people jsut for the heck of it. Anyways, i'll stop before i make more of a fool than what i already did myself look like.
Is it me or this new deftones album sounds weird. don't know if it's the mixing or the guitars. it just sounds weird
I've also realize how much i cared about the little things. Sometimes i don't let them go, causing me a lot of trouble when well you know what i mean. My main concern right now, at this point of my life, is the fact that i don't how it feels to be loved by someone that's not you family or friends. You know, love someone you can actually have an intimate relationship with, (yes someone you can fuck, you bunch of pricks)you know what i mean. i have experience sex and i have loved someone, but i never have both. it sucks. im tired of having one nights stands with people. Im tired of fucking people jsut for the heck of it. Anyways, i'll stop before i make more of a fool than what i already did myself look like.
Is it me or this new deftones album sounds weird. don't know if it's the mixing or the guitars. it just sounds weird