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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
now maybe she will read this. who knows. if you do hillary, i don't think it's a surprise if i say you are...i don't know what to say you are. you are hillary.
calling me up to say you are sorry is fine - it's admirable even kinda. thanks. i mean that. i still dont know what to say in response, but thank you.
and awkward chitchat afterwards is inevitable, as is the transition to "...so you are living with your boyfriend now?"
that's fine. i even want to talk to you again, because i'm tired of us not being friends and not being ok with the past.
but
i don't want to get back together. i honestly don't. talking to you doesn't make me want to date you again.
so why does it make me feel so lonely and hurt again?
fuck.
now maybe she will read this. who knows. if you do hillary, i don't think it's a surprise if i say you are...i don't know what to say you are. you are hillary.
calling me up to say you are sorry is fine - it's admirable even kinda. thanks. i mean that. i still dont know what to say in response, but thank you.
and awkward chitchat afterwards is inevitable, as is the transition to "...so you are living with your boyfriend now?"
that's fine. i even want to talk to you again, because i'm tired of us not being friends and not being ok with the past.
but
i don't want to get back together. i honestly don't. talking to you doesn't make me want to date you again.
so why does it make me feel so lonely and hurt again?
fuck.