...this is your life... are you who you wanna be?...

[sirleenalot]

I love that line... this is your life are you who you wanna be? It really makes me think though. I sit here and I miss Simi SO fricken much. When Im in simi I feel guilty for being there because im not with my mom. Its a fuckin endless cycle. Im either upset out here, or my mom is upset because Im out there. I honestly cant make up my mind anymore. Sometimes I think it seems unfair that I get put into these positions. I know that I have college out here and everything... it just doesnt seem worth it to me. Do I want to live my life making me happy, or making other people happy. Then I think if Im making myself happy, I could be fucking things up with other people.

I dont fuckin know anymore

i think that if I had friends out here like I do in simi things would be different. I have a bunch of friends out here but I dont even hang out with them. I never feel like it.

I need a job

I need to fix this shit... soon