ah yes one of those update things
I think losing my mind is a major possibility at this point. honestly I think it'd be the easier solution.
So basic updates are as follows:
- I'm living with a roomie at the moment back in Radcliff. Dunno how long it'll be for or what's up with that. He's nice though so thats a bonus (yes that's right I said he. Go ahead and gasp and titter. I'm tired of the averted eyes and tsking so keep it inside yourself please. I can handle this, it's not a big deal folks) Added bonus, internet again! yay!
- Have a semi new cellie. And I say semi new because I've had it for a few months but none of you really know that. Hit me up via inbox for the number if you are interested.
- Need more ride time but dunno how feasible that is with the impending dark and lack of funds.
Hmm those are the basics for now.
Ok gush time. Prepare yourself for some major emo (I know, woe is me, hide the butter knives and black hair dye)
Major problem at the moment: Boyfriend, or at least the fellow that resembles him. No idea what to do there. I love him but I'm pretty sure I'm not in love with him anymore. He's a fantastic wonderful loveable fellow. He's always going to be my friend. He doesn't seem to understand though that I am not going to be moving to Tennessee with him. And I cannot bring myself to hurt him. I've told him that I'm not coming there and I brought up the whole notion of us parting ways and saying goodbye, that didn't work as planned. I thought at frist I'd never make it on my own without him, yet here I am doing just fine anddandy. Well sort of. I still want him as my friend, still want to go see hi mand hang out with him. Plus he's helping me out by taking care or Uno. but I just don't know what to do. He's not understanding that things are over. And damn it I can't hurt him. And yea yea yea I know that whole not telling him is only hurting him more but still I can't do it and it's killing me.
problem number 2, I totally killed myself on the cell minutes/messages thing. I'm dreading the whole bill this month :/. I don't remember using it that much but I guess I have to admit I'm one of those people that didn't pay attention and got myself into a tiny bit of trouble. Le sigh, guess I won't do that again.
So I think I'm gonna have to give in and move back home. If I end this with Dan then I guess I really don't have much of a reason not to head back that way. I can't get through the things in life I want to if I don't give in at some point. Like school is a definate problem there. And moving back to Corydon would be great but then I have to find a reliable roomie, and a really good job, which then gets into the school thing. Crap
Ok emo moment over I think
Typing too must end, I'm tired and depressed now.
So basic updates are as follows:
- I'm living with a roomie at the moment back in Radcliff. Dunno how long it'll be for or what's up with that. He's nice though so thats a bonus (yes that's right I said he. Go ahead and gasp and titter. I'm tired of the averted eyes and tsking so keep it inside yourself please. I can handle this, it's not a big deal folks) Added bonus, internet again! yay!
- Have a semi new cellie. And I say semi new because I've had it for a few months but none of you really know that. Hit me up via inbox for the number if you are interested.
- Need more ride time but dunno how feasible that is with the impending dark and lack of funds.
Hmm those are the basics for now.
Ok gush time. Prepare yourself for some major emo (I know, woe is me, hide the butter knives and black hair dye)
Major problem at the moment: Boyfriend, or at least the fellow that resembles him. No idea what to do there. I love him but I'm pretty sure I'm not in love with him anymore. He's a fantastic wonderful loveable fellow. He's always going to be my friend. He doesn't seem to understand though that I am not going to be moving to Tennessee with him. And I cannot bring myself to hurt him. I've told him that I'm not coming there and I brought up the whole notion of us parting ways and saying goodbye, that didn't work as planned. I thought at frist I'd never make it on my own without him, yet here I am doing just fine anddandy. Well sort of. I still want him as my friend, still want to go see hi mand hang out with him. Plus he's helping me out by taking care or Uno. but I just don't know what to do. He's not understanding that things are over. And damn it I can't hurt him. And yea yea yea I know that whole not telling him is only hurting him more but still I can't do it and it's killing me.
problem number 2, I totally killed myself on the cell minutes/messages thing. I'm dreading the whole bill this month :/. I don't remember using it that much but I guess I have to admit I'm one of those people that didn't pay attention and got myself into a tiny bit of trouble. Le sigh, guess I won't do that again.
So I think I'm gonna have to give in and move back home. If I end this with Dan then I guess I really don't have much of a reason not to head back that way. I can't get through the things in life I want to if I don't give in at some point. Like school is a definate problem there. And moving back to Corydon would be great but then I have to find a reliable roomie, and a really good job, which then gets into the school thing. Crap
Ok emo moment over I think
Typing too must end, I'm tired and depressed now.