Did i just see a... fairy?
Uh... I was sitting here reading LJs, which I haven't done in a long time, when from the corner of my eye I saw something white and circular floating by just above the floor. When I turned my focus toward the area I saw nothing there except my cat jumping around batting at the nothing in the air. She stopped for a moment and then continued to fight with something seemingly imaginary. It was a UFO or possibly something from another dimension. Maybe it was the new year fairy.
Yeah, so it is a new year. I have no resolutions except the general list of things I hate about myself that I have always had: I eat unhealthily, I procrastinate, I don't exercise. That about covers it really, if I didn't procrastinate then I'd really have no complaints about myself, I'd get things done. But I do procrastinate and no resolution is going to change that wiring in me. The only thing I might attempt to resolve is the hating myself part. So I resolve to stop hating myself for being a self-indulgent, lazy, day-dreaming, time-killing, irresponsible citizen. My only resolution is to accept myself, accept responsibility for everything I do and don't do, and to stop apologizing to myself and others for who I am. Whatever I achieve or accomplish as a result will be gravy.
Livejournal is not a priority for me right now. The internet in general I have very little time for. My free time is currently occupied with adapting to everything unfamiliar and I'm still inundated with that experience daily. I'm under a spell. In some ways I miss the days that I'd spend many hours a day on the internet, but those days are not these days. But I hope everyone is as well as can be-I have well wishes for you, I'm just short on words. Maybe I'll write about what I did and how it was, or maybe I'll just keep it to myself.
I'd upload some new pics but I think I left my camera at my mom's house. grrr.
Yeah, so it is a new year. I have no resolutions except the general list of things I hate about myself that I have always had: I eat unhealthily, I procrastinate, I don't exercise. That about covers it really, if I didn't procrastinate then I'd really have no complaints about myself, I'd get things done. But I do procrastinate and no resolution is going to change that wiring in me. The only thing I might attempt to resolve is the hating myself part. So I resolve to stop hating myself for being a self-indulgent, lazy, day-dreaming, time-killing, irresponsible citizen. My only resolution is to accept myself, accept responsibility for everything I do and don't do, and to stop apologizing to myself and others for who I am. Whatever I achieve or accomplish as a result will be gravy.
Livejournal is not a priority for me right now. The internet in general I have very little time for. My free time is currently occupied with adapting to everything unfamiliar and I'm still inundated with that experience daily. I'm under a spell. In some ways I miss the days that I'd spend many hours a day on the internet, but those days are not these days. But I hope everyone is as well as can be-I have well wishes for you, I'm just short on words. Maybe I'll write about what I did and how it was, or maybe I'll just keep it to myself.
I'd upload some new pics but I think I left my camera at my mom's house. grrr.