This is my life!
When I was in my thinking spot. The only person in this world that went through my mind was Ashden. Little tiny baby Ashden. The smallest thing pulled me through the hardest time of my life. It's just funny how he'd never know it either. When my best friend and counselor(grandma)and my dog died all i could think of was him. one week all that happened. I found out grandma died, my dog died, and that I was going to be an aunt in 9 months. When I found out about that all I could think about was wow, ya know. I'm going to be an aunt. Before he came around my life had no meaning, if I died the next day I wouldn't care. But when I found out about him I had to stay alive b/c he meant everything to me and he needed me it felt.In I tell ya what, everything went great that year forward 'cause I cared about life. I got into church, my grades where up really high, i got into track, started doing school activities, had a stable 8 month boyfriend. I mean everything was perfect(except the minor food problem and pregnancy bitching from ashley). Then when Ashley moved back to virginia with the unborn baby that was due in a couple days I cried.
'Cause everyone can prove that I was so happy about Ashden. I had his womb pictures and showed them to everybody, even teachers. I was the happiest person alive.
D went when Ashden was born and brought back pictures. The pictures where with me at all times. I thought if only I could touch him. In a couple weeks my prayers where answered and all 4 of us went down to virginia. I was so nervous. D threw up b/c of nerves. I'll never forget waiting for hours on the hotel deck for Ash's car. Then they came. My heart rose like 5 steps up. I didn't see him till we got into the room. Everyone was after him. When I finally saw him I was itching so bad to hold him. Then I held him for the first time. I wanted to cry I felt so good. He was so tiny. I thought now I understand why people die for something this small. Why people would rather go to hell then see a baby hurt. All the oxygen went out of my body. I didn't even care that we spent 4 days in a hotel with nothing to do.
Then the day we all dreaded came and we had to leave. I didn't cry but my heart was shattered.
But the biggest blessing came and Ash moved back to michigan.
Everyday I spent with Ashden during the summer.That was my entertainment for the summer. Just seeing him grow has been such an experience. The best experience that I've had in my life, he's made my life worth while really. I love being with that little guy. He's been crawling lately and he's got two front teeth. He drools everywhere too.
Eeeeehhhhh, I love him. He's over right now and I was thinking of him before this. Even when he cries it's great 'cause he does this lip thing and it's so cute. I love it most when he smiles though.
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em
Love,
Kelly
'Cause everyone can prove that I was so happy about Ashden. I had his womb pictures and showed them to everybody, even teachers. I was the happiest person alive.
D went when Ashden was born and brought back pictures. The pictures where with me at all times. I thought if only I could touch him. In a couple weeks my prayers where answered and all 4 of us went down to virginia. I was so nervous. D threw up b/c of nerves. I'll never forget waiting for hours on the hotel deck for Ash's car. Then they came. My heart rose like 5 steps up. I didn't see him till we got into the room. Everyone was after him. When I finally saw him I was itching so bad to hold him. Then I held him for the first time. I wanted to cry I felt so good. He was so tiny. I thought now I understand why people die for something this small. Why people would rather go to hell then see a baby hurt. All the oxygen went out of my body. I didn't even care that we spent 4 days in a hotel with nothing to do.
Then the day we all dreaded came and we had to leave. I didn't cry but my heart was shattered.
But the biggest blessing came and Ash moved back to michigan.
Everyday I spent with Ashden during the summer.That was my entertainment for the summer. Just seeing him grow has been such an experience. The best experience that I've had in my life, he's made my life worth while really. I love being with that little guy. He's been crawling lately and he's got two front teeth. He drools everywhere too.
Eeeeehhhhh, I love him. He's over right now and I was thinking of him before this. Even when he cries it's great 'cause he does this lip thing and it's so cute. I love it most when he smiles though.
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em
Love,
Kelly